the worst thing about jasey's death
in my very views
was that she had to endure it in an instant.
if we had more time in between
i would stroke her pale cheeks
and hold her cold hand
and kiss her blue lips
and tell her that everything will be okay
that there is a more beautiful place
than this world that we live in
that i loved her
forever and always.
jasey;
i tried hard to forget about you.
i couldn't sleep
couldn't eat
couldn't think
without my darling jasey in my mind.
she haunts my dreams and i see her everywhere i look.
my heart yearns for the love
that is jasey rae.
and so i close myself up and trust no one.
no one will ever be able to replace you
and i guess i'm just afraid
that if i go out
i would find someone who will.
i have never witnessed a soul resonating so much
beauty within herself.
she was full of ridiculous insecurities
but still a soul full of eccentrics.
she was strange in her own beautiful way.
but she was still hard to decipher
a twist created from the edge of herself.
she was an enigma to the galaxies
that nobody could solve.
my dear jasey so beautiful;
beautiful in a league of her own.
she was as sweet as candy
and as bitter as coffee
if that makes any sense.
i bet she must be smiling right now
hanging with the moon
as she sat between stars
tracing the fancy constellations with her fingers
looking down on the sorry humans
who will never be
as beautiful as she was.
i now reside in jasey's old room
and have officially left home.
it's very grave that i chose to live in a room
that we shared so many memories in
but i guess;
the music from her radio she got from sally
and the replays of all her albums
gave me a sense of escape;
with her.
i never did attend her funeral
but so didn't anyone else.
nobody was there but sally.
but baby, they closed your casket
and there was no reason for me
to attend if they won't show
your beautiful face
among the few of the most precious of God's paintings.
i visited her grave
with a handful of peonies twice a day
because time spoke for me that she deserves it.
i write her a small note and leave jasey
a pack of Marlboro blue ice
because they probably
don't sell this
in heaven.
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insane. ➼irwin
Fanfiction➼we were both insane. especially on tuesdays. [lowercase intended] all ideas and writing are mine, 2014 mylittlepenguin