"ashton irwin.
if you're reading this before i am dead;
please pretend you never saw this
return it under my pillow and act shocked
when you read it the second time.
if i am dead; i'm very sorry.
only time will tell you how long you have left
in this world where fate take us by surprise.
the thing is-
like jesus;
we were all born to hurt
born to get hurt
born to get our hearts broken
born to learn how to fix ourselves
born to break promises
born to lie
born to lose to fate
but most of all;
we were all born to die.
all of us.
none of us can escape
the infinite that is oblivion.
personally i do not believe
in life after death.
even if there is- i don't really think that heaven really exists.
nobody is ever completely naïve and sinless
irrevocably innocent.
nobody i tell you.
that nun you saw bowing down to God
i bet she's seen or heard
things she wasn't supposed to as a youth.
that priest you see every sunday?
he's made sins none of us
has ever seen him done.
how can heaven ever exist when
every being to walk will commit a sin?
my point is; i'm going to hell.
hands down
because i killed my mother.
if i am dead
i would like you to go to my father and tell him-
jasey wants you to know that
even if she didn't remember doing it
she was sorry that she killed her mother.
she loved her very much
as much as any daughter
can ever love her mother
and that she will be joining her.
ashton dear ashton
my love
if i am dead i'd like to teach you of insanity
and how to face the world full of it-
everybody is insane
this is what i told you the first time we spoke.
and i have told you the reasons of my saying so-
the only difference between us souls
is that we are all sad, twisted and insane
in our own special way.
no two insanities are the same.
the best way to overcome insanity is to accept it.
these insane things we do; they make us human.
they make us what we're supposed to be-
regretful, sinful beings
full of mistakes and flaws that underlines us.
they make us understand that
we can't do everything.
i also remember something sally told me
when i first came in at sixteen years old.
she said
"there are not many people in this world
who cares about you;
the easy part is to accept that.
the hard part is to differentiate
between the individuals around you."
i think it holds a million truths
and so i'm lucky because i found you.
i love you ash
on this world or in hell: always.
my heart is yours
and your heart is hopefully mine.
when you go through my stuff
forgive me
for anything i never told you.
you may keep everything you want for i don't mind.
if there is anything you wished i told you
let me assure you
i would if time was willing to spare me of my fate.
i love you very dearly.
i have never loved anyone or anything
more than i love you.
if i am dead; goodbye.
stay strong.
keep our adventures in mind-
keep our memories in mind-
keep our sweet, sweet kisses in mind-
keep on keeping on
but just please try to forget me.
i guess time spoke for us that we knew
my days were running out.
the mistake i made was that
i walked off alone into a fight i knew i would lose.
forever yours,
jasey rae."
STAI LEGGENDO
insane. ➼irwin
Fanfiction➼we were both insane. especially on tuesdays. [lowercase intended] all ideas and writing are mine, 2014 mylittlepenguin