Dear Ashton,
this morning was the first therapy session and I hated it.
the therapist is a bitch....she read my journal then told me that I should stop writing to you and move on.
Ashton, I don't wanna move on. I don't wanna.
this is the only way I feel close to you..I feel like you're listening to me, I feel that if I keep writing to you..you'll answer. if that makes sense. I don't think it does.
whatever.
I didn't talk much to Kayla- oh did I mention her name is Kayla? well her name is Kayla- I just sat there for an hour and a half, staring at the wall.
do you realise that I'm falling apart? ...I'm breaking day by day. Im losing myself..
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the new 'drummer' just came by, asking for a apologie. I'm not saying sorry to that fucker.
he shouldn't even be in the band. its not right.
I hate him.
I hate me.
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calum just texted me saying that I should stop punching Ed- the new drummer - or I get kick out of the band. I honestly could care less.
I don't wanna be in the stupid band anyways, not without you.
-luke
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99 days without you >> lashton AU
Fanfiction❝Ash, Im confused, I thought we were happy. I thought we were doing okay. I thought we went through that…but I was wrong. I was so wrong.❞ Where Luke hemmings writes to his dead boyfriend, hoping he'd write back. All rights reserved || © YayerNayer...
