[listen to "only the winds" by ólafur arnalds]
Dear ashton,
I don't deserve to live.
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I feel like no one understands me anymore. I feel like everyone forgot the real me. Hell, I even forgot who I was.
I don't know ashton. its stupid I know. I just feel like nobody cares, I feel alone
…
The world is a filthy place. Its a filthy god damn horror show. There's so much pain you know. there's so much.
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I just got back from buying cocaine down the street, I know its bad..I know it is. But I just wanna forget the dream I had. its still haunting me..and pushes me more and more into suicide.
I really want to die..but its not my time yet.
if that makes sense. does it?
..
I started to cut on my legs because theres no room on my arms anymore. and Kayla said if she ever sees cut on me again, she'll have o send me away for sure.
hey you know whats weird, whenever I cut my wrists..blood doesn't even come out. is that normal? or did I cut too much that blood can't even come out? that I got all the blood out of me. is that possible?
well I don't know. it makes no sense to me.
Ive lost my god damn mind.
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Michael is coming over to stay the night, he doesn't trust me being alone.
I can't blame him, I can't even trust myself.
Hey Ash?
When its my time to leave…
will you wait for me?…
-luke
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Let the feels settle in.
can anyone guess that quote? :)
(if you know it, I love you.)
Sorry I had to rewrite this, wattpad is weird right now.
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99 days without you >> lashton AU
Fanfiction❝Ash, Im confused, I thought we were happy. I thought we were doing okay. I thought we went through that…but I was wrong. I was so wrong.❞ Where Luke hemmings writes to his dead boyfriend, hoping he'd write back. All rights reserved || © YayerNayer...
