Dear Ashton,
my mother came over, I haven't seen her since the funeral...Your funeral.
She came to help me. She cleaned up my open wounds, and She helped me take a bath- since I'm too weak to even lift anything. She cooked for me. of course I had to eat, but I puked it out half an hour later..and you should've seen the look on her face. She looked disappointed.
....
Calum came over...and ..
He kicked me out of the band. He said I was too sick. I don't really blame him, I am sick. I'm sick of everything. He said it was for the best.
I'm not Luke hemmings from 5sos anymore...
I'm Luke hemmings the depressed drug addict, who cuts himself and writes to a dead person hoping he'd write back.
im a fuck up.
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its 10pm and I'm staring at your picture.
how could someone so special, feel so sad and alone?
how could someone so happy and cheerful be so suicidal?
how could someone have a bright future but ends it before it even starts?
how could a fake smile be so real?
I don't get it.
I dont get why you had to leave.
wasn't I all you need? or did you need more?
maybe I am not good enough for you after all.
in sorry ash.
-Luke
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sorry I felt like double updating. (love meeeh) ..ay would anyone make a new cover ? I'll give you credits. ✅
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99 days without you >> lashton AU
Fanfiction❝Ash, Im confused, I thought we were happy. I thought we were doing okay. I thought we went through that…but I was wrong. I was so wrong.❞ Where Luke hemmings writes to his dead boyfriend, hoping he'd write back. All rights reserved || © YayerNayer...
