Introverted Hearts // Josh Dun

chapter nineteen :: exposed

tw// sexual assault

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"You look like a zombie." Jenna told CJ as she trudged into the kitchen with her blanket wrapped around her.

"Mhm." She simply opened the refrigerator and pulled out a cold soda.

"What's going on?" Jenna grabbed her best friend and forced her to look up at her. "You look.. dead."

CJ did not respond.

"Wait.." Jenna carefully examined CJ and noticed how her eyes were red and puffy. Her face was even a bit sunken in. "Are you using again?"

"No," CJ swatted her hands away. "I'm just.. I'm upset."

"Why?" Jenna asked. "What happened?"

"It's Josh," CJ's voice cracked. "H-He doesn't want me anymore."

"J," Jenna tried to reason with her. "What would make you think that? He's practically in love with you."

"No," CJ shook her head. "He won't touch me. He hasn't called o-or texted me for a week."

"Maybe he's been busy."

"No," CJ shook her head. "He always tells me when he's busy so that I know when I can't call him when I'm upset a-and he lets me know whenever he can't come over. He's leaving me on read, Jenna."

"CJ-"

"He used to put his arm over my shoulders when we slept o-or watched movies and he would get all blushy when I kissed his hand. I miss it, Jenna. I miss him. I miss his stupid smile a-and his big teeth. His eyes would get all squinty when he smiled. Did you know that? He-"

"Stop talking about him like he's death," Jenna told him. "When did he start ignoring you?"

"Um.. When we made up. After Easter. W-We were watching a movie and we started to.. y'know, get into it." CJ described. "But he stopped. I don't know what I did, but I-I did something."

Jenna was devastated as she realized why Josh was ignoring her best friend.

"W-Why don't we call him? Get him to come over?" Jenna suggested as her worst fears came to a head.

"Please?"

Jenna nodded. "Go get yourself together, okay?"

CJ nodded and trudged away.

Jenna went into her room and clicked Josh's name in her contacts.

Before he was able to say anything, Jenna came for him.

"Why the fuck would you do that to her?" Jenna began. "You know how she is and you treat her like that because of what I did?"

"Jenna-"

"She's crying because she thinks that you don't want her anymore. Do you have any idea what you did?"

"What I did?" Josh shot back. "She was.. She was raped. And you didn't even tell her."

"That's not fair." Jenna told him.