KIDNAP : FOR A GOOD REASON

Suhani raat

Shilpa's PoV

He was trying hard to be good to me, but somehow I couldn't trust him and was being rude to him...but when he jumped to save me from falling, even though when someone was talking to him....I decided to be friends with him...it was stupid to fight the whole holidays, with the person who was trying his best to be my friend and everything...

The place was very romantic...I loved the lighting, we sat there for some time...the dinner was awesome... But he was not in the mood to talk...

"Vikasji, kya abhi bhi naraaz ho? Ab dosti to karli, ab kya karu bataiye?"

"nahi main naraaz nahi hun, i was enjoying the nazara...thanks dost banne ke liye...lekin main chahta hun ki aap meri dost ke aage kuch bano"

"Aap jyada expect kar rahe hai....I am happy for being your friend...at least ab aap nahi keh sakte..na dost na dushman..."

"Main kehna bhi nahi chahta..ab main sirf logo se kehna chahta hun...meri patni..."

I blush...because at the end of the day I too want the same...i too want him to love me...because I love him...but cannot trust him...he is someone who has a childish nature within him...he loves being loved, so he trusts anyone, goes with anyone...how can I trust such person...

"Kya soch rahi ho?"

"Soch rahi thi ki aap bhi bachcho jaisi jidd karte hai...main koi khilona nahi hun...ek mamuli insaan hun...aaj aap mujhse keh rahe hai ki mujhse aapko shadi karni hai, kal mujhse achchi koi mil gayi to mera kya karoge?"

"Shilpa, agar tum mere baare mein aisa soch rahi ho, to tum mujhe janti nahi ho...main jab kisi se pyar karta hun to uske liye apni jaan bhi de sakta hun...tumse main aaj se pyaar nahi kar raha hun.....ise bahut saal ho gaye...aur main jidd nahi kar raha hun...main pyar karta hun tumse...aur kal ka kisne socha...agar mujhe koi achchi ladki milegi, to shayad aapko bhi achcha ladka mile...kya pata?"

I was listening to him intently. He was always a nice orator, i loved listening to him, he had a point though...kal kisne dekha. We finished our dinner and went back to our room...tomorrow we planned to go to Sydney opera house...

Last two nights were not normal, where he was sick and sleeping...but today when our relationship had  taken a turning point, i was feeling uncomfortable. He understood my dilemma..

"agar aap mere saath bed share karogi to main vaada karta hun ki main apne kone mein chup chap so lunga, lekin agar aap uncomfortable feel karti hai to main couch par so sakta hun"

"Aap bed par soyiye, main couch par so lungi"

"Shilpa sach bolu..hum dono hi bed par so lenge...thoda apne aapko control kar lena aur apne corner mein sona...to koi problem nahi hogi"

"excuse me, control kar lena ka kya matlab hai?"

He comes near me, puns me between him and the wall, " jaise tumhe pata hi nahi hai"...he slowly opens my bun and lets my hair fall on my shoulder..." itni bhi bholi mat bano"...he slowly kisses me on my head.."main janta hun aag dono taraf lagi hai"..he comes down towards my lips.....

I slowly say.."agar aag lagi hai to bujhane ke liye fire brigade bulau..kyunki aag aaphi ko jyada lagi hai, mujhe nahi"...I try to push him..but he helds me more tight where I cant even move.

"Achcha, aag ek hi taraf lagi hai..main chahta hun ki dono taraf lage, jitna bhi samay lage chalta hai...I love you shilpa, bas ab mujhse hota nahi hai..."

By saying this, he kisses on my lips..a deep kiss...which I enjoy as a new sensation is creeping in my spine and I am loving it...I didn't know this side of Vikasji...he is making me weak in my knees. ..but something is stopping me from responding, maybe my conscious...so I push him and run towards the bathroom to get fresh...I am flushed and surprised by his behaviour. ..

When I come out..."Kya decide kiya aapne? "

"Main abhi bhi couch par sona pasand karungi...thank you very much"

"jaisi aapki marzi"

He is irritated...but I dont want to take the risk...I might not be able to control him next time..I dont want to get involved with him anymore...but how is it possible?...Spending time with him 24 hrs is making me week in my decision... He is young, doesnt think but, me , i have to think about the consequences...what is not possible how to encourage it? I have to do something...I.have to go from.here...if I dont go then this will lead us somewhere else...I dont want to make any mistakes, he has just began his career without any controversaries, so how can I bring another controversy in his life...not possible...

I need to go..but last time I went out with Rajeev he almost killed himself...I can go to Rajeev but what if he does something to himself.....what should I do? Need to talk to him..
Very necessary....but will he listen?....best way is to go from here...

I need to make a plan to escape from here....I will go to Rajeev tomorrow...hope my plan succeeds.