Love, Loss, and Life

Loner

Ever been in a room full of your friends,
but you're an outsider at the same time?
Ever tried talking to your buddies,
but they greet and ignore you all at once?

The room is getting crowded now.
All your friends have joined their friends-
Friends who you see everyday
having fun with your buddies;
but they're still strangers,
and your buddies ever so slowly
transform into strangers themselves...

You and your friends actually chat a lot,
but do they really know you?
I'm not talking about knowing your name,
knowing your personality and quirks-
I'm talking about knowing you;
knowing the person behind your locked doors;
knowing what goes on in your private life;
knowing what's really going on inside you.

Friends aren't friends if they don't care.
Friends aren't friends if they ignore you.
Friends aren't friends if they turn their back towards you.
and friends aren't friends if they won't even talk to you;
if they won't wanna know what's wrong;
if they don't like it when you need them-
especially if they don't need you at all.

Those friends are strangers.
They don't know you truly deep down.
They like to talk to you, but not really at all.
All of them are in the room,
but you feel left out-like an outsider...
...like a loner-

a loner like me.