The Love That Never Fade

Baby, I Love You

"'Cause all of me Loves all of you. Love your curves and all your edges. All your perfect imperfections. Give your all to me, I'll give my all to you. You're my end and my beginning. Even when I lose I'm winning."
- John Legend, All Of Me.

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She was waiting patiently for the result. Her hands was sweating and shaking. It has been ages that she didn't visit the doctor. She was feeling not well for a few weeks and loss of her appetite. She was thinking she was going to die. Die at young age? Not even yet married or start a family. She was screaming in her chest. Argh... She couldn't sit still anymore. She just did the test - they took some blood, asked her to give her urine - around half an hour ago but it seemed it took too long for her to get the result. The female doctor told her that it wouldn't take too much time but she felt cheated. She thought the doctor was probably lying to her or probably she was already too anxious.

She felt she need to share this with him. She haven't told him anything about it. She didn't want him to worry. It could be a flu , or probably some viral infection or some bladder infection...or else which couldn't be a cancer...of if it a cancer or something nastier...I couldn't face this alone. She was mumbling to herself and her eyes started became teary. This is too much.. Too much... Suddenly, the door to the doctor room opened with a loud crack, almost deafening to her ears. The assistant to the doctor called her -

"Mam, please come in."

She immediately stand up and obeyed her. She felt her knee weakening but she pulled herself. The doctor smiled to her by the time she entered the room. She was terribly anxious, she couldn't respond with a smile, even her assistant could notice it. She sat still opposite to the doctors. Piles of paper on her table but they were arranged neatly in orders.

"Mam, are you okay?" The doctor asked her, noticing her anxious look. She nervously nodded. Her eyes are wide opened. She was prepared for any news. She has too.

"Mam, we have your results.... You're perfectly well." the doctor showed her and explained the blood results. She was relieved.

"Then why I felt unwell. Not much rest? Or overwork?"

The doctor pulled out a small plastic bag containing a small plastic device with a single visible window. She noticed two lines in the middle. The doctor gave her a smile but she was confused.

"Mam, congratulation. You're pregnant... Apparently around 2 months"

She was shocked, the word "pregnant" echoed in her mind. She felt she wasn't ready yet. The doctor must be wrong. She thought she was planning for a family in another 10 years. I already told him. Not now!

All kinds of things came to his thought - is this his baby, my career, how am I suppose to raise this child alone?? She felt suddenly an intense headache came without warning, she immediately felt she was about to loss her balance and her head started to become dizzy. Later on, she felt the room started to spinning and her vision slowly became blurred. The only thing she could hear was her name was repeatedly called and somebody shook her shoulder....

"Addy? Addy! Wake up!"

She woke up, startled. She was sitting next to Toby in the cab. Slightly confused and alarmed.