The Man I Became... Because of You (Completed)

Settling In

Pete

I slept for the entire afternoon into the next day. When I woke, it was 5:30am and I was now wide awake. I got up and freshened up then wondered down stairs and into the kitchen.

I should have known she would be there when I walked in. It was almost six and she always started preparing for the day at 5.

"Par Jew." I say her name softly because I am suddenly overcome. This woman is my saving grace. It was because of her that I was able to survive when things were difficult. She taught me how to cook and showed me the things I needed to do to take care of a home. She loved me as much as my mother did and I loved her like a mother. 

Her head turns and I am surprised that she was able to hear the whisper of her name. Her eyes widen and suddenly she is moving quickly from behind the sink and into my arms. 

I am crying now because she is crying and we both just hold on to each other as though this is our only chance.

"Young Master! Oh! Oh! I have missed you so much. I am so happy to see you."

"Par Jew. I have missed you as well. I have missed you so much." I held on because this is true. I have always been blessed with two mothers and I appreciate them both so much. 

Finally we let go and I wipe her face with a tissue from the roll on the counter. 

"Oh. I still can't believe you are here. You mother must me so happy. Oh. Master Ae must be besides himself. I am surprised he is not here already. But then he has that big project to worry about. I bet he will show up soon."

"Oh. Par Jew. Is Ae here often then?" I ask her in surprise. I had no idea. Though maybe I should. He seemed so close with Mom yesterday.

"Oh Master Pete. If you only knew how much he missed you. That first month that you were gone, he was here for almost the entire time. Slept in your room, he did. He was grieving, the poor boy. I know what he did for you was wrong but I cannot blame him for it. You should have said something sooner my baby. You should not have kept us in the dark."

"I know that now. He told me to say something. To call the police even. But I knew the impact it would have on the family. I didn't want to take that risk. And to be honest. I wasn't read to come that far out of my closet. I was in love and we were happy. He was a problem that only reared its head every so often."

"Yeah but people like him, they are parasites. They will keep sucking until you cut them off. That's what he was doing Pete."

You must be confused by our conversations, or maybe you have caught on by now. I was attacked by a man named Trump on more than one occasion. 

He wasn't always my attacker thought. In fact he courted me and I was so happy to finally feel loved that I feel for it. Then, once he trapped me with a kiss, he betrayed me. He began blackmailing me for money while using the threat of my sexuality. I am from a very rich family on both sides. My mother's family name carries a lot of weight in old money. So does my fathers. I have spent my whole life with the knowledge that one wrong move could destroy the image we have always maintained.

But I also wanted to be loved. I wanted to be looked at with affection and held by strong hands, and stroked with a passionate grip. And I wanted all that to come from a man. 

It was because of Trump that I met Ae. He saved me when Trump would have hurt me. He made sure that I was always protected. However, he is not superhuman. Trump was able to get to me just once and he tried to rape me. Ae found us in time and almost killed Trump. 

I know Ae. He would have willingly faced the consequences and I loved and still love him enough to wait for him. But there were other things to take into consideration. Ae's family would have to live with the consequences of what he did. They depended on their businesses to live. This would cost them clients. Ae was also being recruited by an engineer named Forth who had established his own company. He was molding Ae to be his portege.