Starting New - Xxxtentacion

Chapter 70 - Love Is Hell

It's been a week since I found out Trevon and those two kids murdered my brother. My fucking ex boyfriend and some lunatics that fought my brother only once.

Jahseh wants to hurt him. But I won't let him. I can't let Jahseh get in trouble with the police. No way. He doesn't get it. He can't get locked up again.

"Ta?" I heard Jahsehs voice. I looked up from my laptop and saw him standing in my door way. "Did you hear me?" He asked with a chuckle as he walked into my room. I shook my head. "I asked what are you doing?" He laid on my bed and looked at me. I'm sitting up right now and looking at my laptop.

"I'm looking at old pictures" I told him. He nodded.

"I want you to look up these lyrics" he started. I looked at him confused and nodded. "I was listening to this song that has Trippie in it. And his part is how I feel about you. Hold on" he explained then grabbed my laptop. I smiled a little bit as I watched him. "Only read Trippies part though" he told me then put the computer back in front of us. I saw the lyrics on the screen and read the name of the song.

"Love is hell? Is loving me hell to you?" I joked making him laugh. He shook his head.

"Just read it" he said smiling. I looked back at the screen and scrolled down to Trippies part.

'Yeah, you know I can't be without you
You my baby, yeah, I can't live without you
I'm so crazy about you. Can't imagine having babies without you. You my baby, you my ride, yeah With me, baby, is where you reside, yeah
Yesterday I had no time But guess what? Today, baby, I got time, yeah
I'm so crazy 'bout you, yeah
Thing One and Thing Two, yeah'

"Awe babe" I said after reading them and I faced him. I actually felt a tear form in my eye. That is so perfect.

"Are you crying?" He asked and started to laugh again. I nodded and pouted.

"I just love you so much baby" I told him then wrapped my arms around him laying my head on his shoulder.

"That verse is exactly how I feel about you. I'm so crazy about you. I for real can't see myself with you" he told me. I looked up at him and he wiped the tear that fell. He chuckled then kissed me softly. So he could see us having a child in the future?

"You're so good to me, Jah"

"You deserve it" I pressed my lips against his. I never want to leave him.

***

Being in this house is weird. The last night I was here was when my dad was yelling at me telling me how bad Jahseh and Stokeley are. What a joke. Luckily my dad isn't here. Just my mom and I. And it's not weird between us. We're laughing and actually enjoying each other's company. Like how it used to be.

"You seem very happy now" My mom said as she sat on my old bed. I'm already sitting on the floor going through a box.

"I am" I told her and nodded.

"So tell me about Jahseh" she started off. "Are you in love?" She asked.

"Very much" I answered her as a smile started form on my face just by thinking about Jahseh. "I've never met anyone like him. I've never met anyone who relates to me so much. He is an amazing guy. To me, he's perfect." I told her.

"That's great. You deserve that kind of love" she said back to me. "I'm sorry for pushing you away" I nodded slowly. She looked down at her fingers then back up at me and smiled softly. "Even though we were shitty parents, you grew up to be an amazing girl. I'm proud of you. I'm happy to see you have good people surrounding you" she told me. I smiled too.