pure fiction // ziam

ninety three

same day...

louis: honestly i'm not sure i can handle all this

zayn: what exactly are we talking about?

louis: well i mean it's completely unrelated to the fact that there will be alcohol at this party and harry is in charge of the alcohol delivery

zayn: don't you trust him?

louis: yeah

louis: maybe

louis: idk?

zayn: louis.......

louis: i know it's bad to think this way but i mean wouldn't you feel the same way if liam did that to you? i mean think about it, it's fucked up that someone would go out of their way to purposely destroy the relationships they've built with people just because they become dependent on a substance that will end up killing them

zayn: one tid bit... harry didn't *do* that to anyone. he drank for a consecutive amount of days and that is it. he kept it away from everyone, he was in pain, he was alone, he *thought* he was alone. so saying that him drinking is purposely destroying relationships (in this situation at least) is kind of a stretch

louis: so you're saying that i'm overreacting?

zayn: maybe just a little bit

louis: ....

louis: okay

zayn: louis?

louis: i'm fine. i swear.

zayn: why are you lying ??

louis: because it hurts admitting that i thought i was going to lose harry. and i'm trying to find every possible way to get rid of my guilt that i wasn't there for him when he needed me even if he never explicitly told me so. it hurts that part of the pain that he felt was caused by me...

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