Eternal Love | A Shawbrina Fanfic

Chapter 82- Divorce

Shawn's POV

Sabrina's has been in rehab for almost a month now. I haven't visited her yet because they won't let me because of her behavior: they said that she's too altered, refuses to be helped, won't communicate with anyone to be alone all the time. About her addiction, no results yet, she still has all the symptoms, she hasn't improved, at all. They keep me updated daily of what happens to her and my anxiety just increases.
I miss her, a lot.
Sometimes I wonder what would happen if I visited her. Would she be mad or hug me instead? Would I hug her and tell her that everything is fine or keep distance because I'd be scared of her? Why would I be scared of her? Would she ask me about the babies or stay silent the whole time?
I suddenly hear the phone ringing and I pick up
"Hello?"
"Hi, we're the LA CADA" What?! Did something happen? They usually call me around 9pm, not 3pm
"And we're calling you to request you to visit your wife"
"Did something happen?" Please tell me that she's fine, I'm begging of you!
"No, nothing happened but since she hasn't made any improvement we think that you might talk to her to motivate her. Our specialists literally tried everything with her and still, nothing. We don't usually do things like this one but we're making an exception this time"
"Sure! I'll be there! What time?"
"Five o'clock is fine?"
"Sure! Bye!" I hung up. I'm so excited to see her but I wish that it wasn't for this reason that I can to see her. I thought that my first time visiting her would've happened because she would've made an improvement, not because she's stuck in limbo. But I wanna do everything I can to help her out, I really want her to be fine and happy.

*at the center*

Okay, it's time, I can see Sabrina through the glass. She's sitting in a chair in front of a table. Gosh, she doesn't even look like herself anymore, and it's not because of her pale skin, it's everything about her. I can't see the smile that used to radiate my whole world, I can't see her happiness, I can't see the flames in her eyes that gave her her characteristic bad-but-also-sweet-bitch look. I notice that the guard tries to touch her shoulder but she aggressively brushes it off of her. The light that she used to bring with her to light up a room is now gone. I can't see her, I can't see...I just can't.
I take a deep breath and decide to come in
"Hi honey..." I say, cautious, and sit in front of her. Sabrina doesn't even look up at me, she just keeps looking at the table instead
"How are you?" I bite my lip
"Please?" I try to take her hands but she retracts them immediately, almost as she was scared.
"Is everything fine?" She doesn't reply
"Answer me, please" Nothing. No response
"I know that you might hate me for what I did to you, I didn't even warn you. I straight up lied to you. I should've told you that I'd be bringing you here but I was too scared. And I'm sorry, but I did it for your own good" I search for any sign in response but she doesn't even flinch.
"All I'm gonna ask you is to try, at least try to fight it. If not for you or me then for Harry and Alex" She finally looks up at me with a dull look. Her eyes are literally turned off, there's no light in them
"How are they?" I slightly smile. I missed her voice
"They're fine, right now they're with Sarah"
"Good"
"Can you answer my question now? Are you good?" she hisses
"Why do you care?"
"I do care Sabrina, I'm your husband, how are you?" She looks back down
"Sabrina-"
"Shut up! Will you just shut up for a second?!" I stand up in rage
"I won't! My wife's in rehab and I wanna know how she's feeling!" She throws a fist at the table while standing up as well
"Do you wanna know how I'm feeling?! Fucking betrayed! You don't love me! You just wanted an excuse to throw me off here and make yourself the victim!" I see full hate in her eyes, I've never seen her like this and I wish I never did. She's so scary.
"What are you talking about Sab? That's nonsense baby" I try to calm her down
"You know what?! I'm doing great without you and your stupid help! I'm already recovering and I'll be totally fine in no time! And when that moment will come I'll rub it in your face alongside the divorce papers!" I frown
"What?"
"Yeah! As soon as I'll get out of here I'll ask for a divorce!" I chuckle nervously, she can't be serious
"Come on Sab, just think for a moment, will you?"
"Leave"
"But-" She gets dangerously close to me in an instant, and definitely not to kiss me. She grabs the hem of my shirt with her left hand while clinching her other hand, ready to hit me
"Leave!"
"Woah-whoa, lady!" The guard separates us. She's about to have a panic attack, I can see it
"Sabrina?" her breath gets heavier
"Ma'am?" She doesn't reply, she just rests her hand in her chest and her tiny body against the wall, reaching for support.
"Nurse!" the guy screams while pushing me away
"She's my wife!"
"Not now sir!" he leaves me out of the structure.
Why? Why us? Please tell me that she's gonna be fine! I need her to be fine! I start crying and walk towards the car to go back home. Unfortunately paparazzis are everywhere and they're taking pictures of me and asking me all kinds of questions
"How is Sabrina?"
"Why are you crying?"
"Is she gonna stay in rehab for a long time?"
"How's her situation?"
I ignore them all and manage to get inside the car.
Why? Why?!