Eternal Love | A Shawbrina Fanfic

Chapter 18- Deal With It

Sabrina's POV
Shawn has been here with me these two weeks that I've been spending at the hospital and today I'm finally gonna go back home. I love Shawn but I really need some time to think and process everything. I know that he's only worried about me but I have to spend some time alone. I still can't believe that we lost our baby, I cry all the time, it doesn't matter where or when, I always do.
"Sabrina, let's go home" Shawn has been sad too and whenever I try to talk about the baby he always changes argument
"Yeah" As soon we get out of the hospital there are already reporters everywhere pointing cameras and mics at us
"How are you Sabrina?"
"Is it true that you lost the baby?"
"Shawn why did you cancel your tour?"
"Please no more questions, we're not gonna answer them" Shawn says with his head lowered down
"Is it true that Sabrina invented the car accident to abort the unwanted child without getting herself into major drama?" This is it. I take the guy's mic
"I admit it, I didn't want a baby but the idea of abortion never crossed my mind" I start crying and drop the mic, then I cover my face with my hands from the flashlights and then we both get in the taxi
"It's fine Sab" He hugs me.
After we get home he sets down my bags and sits next to me on the couch
"What do you wanna do now?" I shrug
"I don't know"
"We can get some ice crea-"
"Shawn we need to talk about the baby" His face is now serious
"It's dead Sabrina, it's gone and there's nothing we can do about it" How could he say this to me in such way? I start crying again
"I know that it's dead Shawn! But I wanna talk about our feelings! I feel sad!" He looks down
"Deal with it."
"Deal with it?! Is this how you wanna play?!" I stand up all furious
"It's not a fucking game Sabrina! We need to move on!"
"You know what? You're right! We need to move on, we need to move on from everything! So you know what? We are also gonna move on from this relationship, because it's over"
"You can't do this Sab" I mock him
"Deal with it"
"Okay, you only need to calm down a little bit this was a shock for you and-"
"Please leave. I need some time alone" He looks at me in sadness and then walks away
Shawn's POV
I can't believe her, she ended a nine-months-relationship like this, with only three words -it's over- , unbelievable.
I'm done with her and all of her bullshit. I see a bar on the other side of the street and come in
"Hi, one beer please" I say to the bartender
"Are you 21?" Right, in America it's illegal to drink if you're under 21. I shake my head
"No, I'm 20"
"Wait, aren't you Shawn Mendes?" I nod
"Yeah, it's me"
"Then of course!" He gives me a bottle
"Can I take a picture?"
"Sure" We take a selfie and then I proceed to drink the bottle
"Another one, please" He gives me another bottle, and then another one, and then another one, until I finally feel happy. I now know how to fix things between me and Sabrina! We just have to make another baby! I wobble back to her house and knock the door, she opens it
"Shawn? What are you doing? It's 1am!" I come in, close the door
"I know how to" I hiccup
"I know how to fix things between us" I grab her waist and kiss her. She immediately pulls away
"Shawn you're drunk!" I laugh
"Of course I'm not" I start kissing her again, roughly. She moans and I take this as a good sign so I start kissing her neck as well and I give her a live bite
"Sh-Shawn" She tries to pull away but she's too weak
"It's okay, we're just gonna make another baby" I then see black
Sabrina's POV
Shawn just fell asleep and we both fall to the floor. I thank god that he fell asleep, what if he wanted to continue? I was scared as hell.
I manage to take him off of me and lie him down on the couch. I put a blanket over him and kisses his forehead
"Goodnight" I whisper before going in my room to lay down on my bed and cry until I fall asleep.
*the next morning*
Shawn's POV
I wake up and my head hurts. I sit up and notice that I'm on a couch, Sabrina's couch, oh no, what happened?! What did I do?!
"Good morning" Sabrina brings me a glass of water with a pill
"Take it, it will help you"
"Thanks" I murmur and drink it
"What happened last night? Why am I here?" She bites her lower lip
"You got drunk last night and came here saying that you knew how to fix things between us" Oh no...
"Did I hurt you?!" I stand up and start checking every inch of her, starting form the neck, where I see a hickey
"Please don't tell me that-"
"No no, thankfully you fell asleep before you could do anything else"I sigh in relief
"Did I say anything stupid"
"Yeah, the first stupid thing that you said was that you weren't drunk" We both chuckle because I obviously was
"And then you said that a baby would fix things" her expression changes into a sad one, just like mine
"I'm sorry"
"It's fine, you weren't thinking"
"I just don't wanna loose you Sabrina, I couldn't handle that as well" I say with tears in my eyes as she holds herself back from crying
"We just need a little bit of space"
"You wanna breakup with me?" I'm now crying at full force
"No! No no baby" she wipes away my tears
"I'm just saying that we don't have to spend every second together, we should hang out more with our friends and families" she's right, I haven't talked to my parents and friends in a very long time
"Okay, but we're still gonna talk, right?"
"Of course we will, we're still gonna do everything that we've been doing, just with less frequency" I smile
"I love you" I hug her
"I love you two" she hugs back
"But know you better get back to work because you've already lost two weeks of touring" I kiss her cheek
"Of course baby, I'm gonna call Andrew and see what I can do" I notice that she's still sad
"I know that you won't be able to tour because of the accident, but I know that you'll come back like the bad bitch you are" she chuckles
"Thanks Shawn"
"What are boyfriends for?" We hug again.
I know that I'll have to wait years before even mentioning the word baby in an argument but it's worth it. I can wait to have a child if the love of my life is gonna be by my side.
I love her so much
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