Malum {Undergoing Major Editing}

Chapter Twenty-six: The Feelings.

Silence.

"Well? Who saved me?" I pushed.

Wrath remained silent, not moving, not uttering a single word or sound. I waited impatiently for a reply and I got nothing.

"Wrath?" I yelled.

He sighed, "why do you want to know?"

"Well because Lucifer told me only the person I desire can save me and blah blah blah..."

"Who do you think saved you?"

"Oh gosh, even you asked me this question! First Lucifer and now you," I started, "I thought it was Joshua at first but now I'm doubting my choice."

"Why are you doubting your choice?" he asked.

"I...I don't know."

"Yes you do Maia...I know you do," he persisted.

I sighed, "I don't 'desire' Joshua, at least not anymore. Now someone had to have saved me but I don't know who."

"If you know you don't 'desire' Joshua, then don't you think you should know who you do 'desire'?" he cleverly questioned.

"that's the thing, I don't know who I desire."

Wrath's POV:

I watched Maia talk about her desires. Gosh, she is gorgeous. I wanted to tell her that I was the one who saved her but I couldn't. It wasn't my place. Perhaps the river made a mistake, perhaps Maia doesn't want me, perhaps this all wasn't real.

"That's the thing, I don't know who I desire." she sighed.

I focused on her face, trying to memorize every single feature on it because this would be the last time I would see her. Everything about her made me happy and the fact that she is leaving pained me. I could listen to her talk for hours on end, telling me about there life and her feelings. I could tell her horrible jokes just to hear her melodious laughter. I could fly all across the globe just to see her again. I could do anything for her.

But it's too late. She's leaving tomorrow with her boyfriend. I am never going to see her again. Everything I could do for her will remain a thought, a figment of my imagination, a part of my fantasy, not real, never real.

I wanted to tell Maia everything: how much I loved her, how much I enjoyed being with her, how much I'll miss her and how much I envy the churchgoer. I wanted to tell her everything but I couldn't. I wanted to hold her hand, her delicate hand in mine and apologize for bringing here into this mess. I wanted to hug her and tell her how much she means to me. I wanted to kiss her and tell her that I loved her and I hope one day she'll love herself just as much as I do. But I didn't.

"The thing is that maybe Joshua likes me but I-" she began.

"I saved you," I interrupted.

"I'm sorry what?" she asked.

"I saved you in the river."

I said it. I couldn't believe I said it. Relief flooded my heart as I uttered the words I saved you. I saved her from the river but she saved me from the pain of life. I tried reading her expression to see whether she was pleased or not but I couldn't see anything. Was she not happy?

"Y-you saved me?" she stuttered.

"Yes I did, is that wrong?" I questioned.

"N-no, it's not. I-I need to go to bed...it's time to sleep."

She got up and left the room. Great going Wrath, you scared her. I sighed and laid down on my bed. I thought about how I cried myself to sleep on countless nights because of my father but tonight the tears fell because of a different reason.

I lost her.

Maia's POV:

"I saved you," he interrupted.

My heart stopped beating and I lost my breath. Wrath had saved me. I didn't know what to feel or how to react so I fled the room like a coward. I laid down and thought of the past couple of weeks and how my life became a rollercoaster ride. Thoughts swarmed my head as I tried to grasp onto anyone of them. I failed to calm myself down. Too many thoughts bombarded me that my eyes began to sting. I squeezed my eyes shut to try and push them all away. I could feel the tears streaming down my face.

Silence.

Only one word was visible in my mind. One word that kept being uttered by my heart and brain.

Wrath.

I couldn't quite grasp whether it was the emotion wrath or the person Wrath. I let myself go into the world of sleep.

***

I jolted awake for some peculiar reason. I searched for my phone to check the time. Unfortunately, Hell doesn't have Wifi or service. I got dressed, my mind still sore from last night. I tried to not think of anything at all and it worked. I thought of nothing but emptiness.

When I left the room, I met with Joshua, Greed, Envy, Pride and Lust all sitting in the main hall having some breakfast that, I'm assume, Gluttony made. I sat next to Lust who was devouring some pancakes. I put some eggs and sausages into my plate and began to eat. I heard footsteps behind me as a very disheveled Wrath came into the room. His hair was a mess and his eyes were red. He sat down at the end of the table, eating some weird cuisine I didn't know the name of. The rest joined us.

We ate in silence. Joshua was the first to finish eating followed by Envy and Pride. They all went out of the castle to get some fresh air.

"So..." Lust began, "you're leaving today."

"Yup," I chocked.

"I'm going to miss you and I'm sure so will the rest of my brothers."

"I'm going to miss all of you guys too, I don't think I can ever forget you all."

We got up and made our way out of the castle to find the rest of the boys. Wrath kept his distance at the back of the group. I wanted to say something to him but I couldn't think of anything. Actually, I knew what to say but I didn't have the courage to say it. I had a lot to say to Wrath but I was too coward to do it.

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Authors note:
Right so I don't know why it took so long to write this chapter but I finally did. When I was writing it, I couldn't quite grasp the emotions Maia and Wrath were feeling so i guess that's why it took so long.

Lxrxib.