Michael's POV
After I stopped seeing my son in my dreams it messed with my head. One moment I thought he was here , before I knew it my eyes were filled with tears and that's exactly how I was gonna start my day with tears in my eyes and the lost of my son on my mind ... not to mention the nightmare I continued to have.
My wife cheating , every time it would change. It would go from her being in love with another man to her just laying down beside another man having sex ... I never noticed until now that the fear of loosing her again was on my mind and it wasn't like I was gonna shake her to wake up while that was on my mind because my frustration was something fierce. As I was wiping the tears from my eyes my old habit was calling me, a bottle of vodka with a cup of orange juice. But as I looked over at her sleeping I really just wanted to hold her and forget everything that had crept into my mind.
Diana's POV
As I was resting I felt my husband tossing and turning on the bed , I knew something had to be on his mind. I just hoped it wasn't the baby .. it was hard enough to think about him myself but to see my husband hurt by the loss of him too just saddened me more. As I got up and turned over I wrapped my arms around his waist trying to fill him with my warm embrace I felt a drop of water hit my hand so I held him tighter
"Babe"
"Yes?"
"What's wrong baby"
"I had a nightmare"
"Was it that bad?"
"Yea it was because one moment you were mine and the next you were this other guys and then another guy after that and the situation changed each time"
"I'm not gonna ever do that to you again babe"
"I know.. I know it was just a dream babe but it felt so real ...."
"Well it's not babe and I'm here, right beside you"
Michael's POV
She's right. That dream is one of my fears a fear I haven't seemed to conquer. Her hands pulling me back towards her took my mind off of the pain. Her smooth silk like finger tips quickly reminded me that she was definitely by my side but what really took me is when she pressed her lips against mine while taking my hand holding it tight and whispered in my ear
"Everything will be alright Michael"
As much as my mind wanted to resist because of our past my heart was in sync with hers and as her eyes caught mine and her lips continued to touch mine, my dream quickly became a figment of my imagination.
"I love you"
As the sorrow disappeared and her love appeared it was hard to ignore it all now. The past is in the past that's what I constantly told myself not noticing a piece of me still held a resentment towards her for leaving me and getting ready to marry another man.. but now all of that we're memories .. memories of our broken hearts
"I love you too"
"try to sleep baby"
"I will"
Diana's POV
Sometimes I wish he'd just let me in instead of compressing how he feels. I know I hurt him in the past but he never seem to see that him being close to a woman that came before me also hurt me. Especially the visits every time we had a argument , sometimes that has gone through my mind. Will he see that I'm enough for him? And the pain from my last relationship I couldn't even begin to express it to him because I know that he's capable of and the truth would only hurt him more.. even if it did weigh over my head sometimes , somethings are better left unsaid
Michael's POV
As I looked over at my wife sound asleep again I couldn't go back to sleep so I did what my body was used to doing I got up out of bed and dragged myself downstairs to my office turning on my record player picking out a old record I rarely listened too
The Dramatics In The Rain as I wiped the dust off of it and placed the needle down the record began to spin and so did my mind as the sound of rain hit my ears I took an empty glass to my mouth. On the edge of my breaking point to grab my choice of poison but as I looked up I seen a shadow by my door
"Who's there?"
"It's me babe , come back to bed"
"I'll be right there"
"This isn't you Mike"
I know it isn't but it is who I became... how do I just change from a daily routine
"Put the drink down"
But I need it ... it numbs the pain
"But she deserves to know your pain or history will just repeat it's self man"
I know ....
I listened to my conscious and walked back upstairs to my bed room as I cracked the door and it screeched her eyes met mine
"What's wrong Michael?"
"I'm having a hard time with just leaving the past in the past Diana"
"Why?"
"That's the question that still remains in my mind ... why .... why did you decide to hurt me like that Diana , why him? & why Jolly?"
"You really want me to tell you?"
"Yes"
As there names slipped off of her mouth as we walked down this terrible memory road in slipped all of the pain and then her pain appeared ... something I wasn't used to seeing I never noticed that it hurt her in anyway... I was being selfish because I was hurt. Little did I know she was hurt too ... little did I know the man I thought she was in love with was also the man causing her so much pain as the tears streamed down her face my heart broke for her and frustrated me even more then I wasn't there to shield her from this kind of pain
"I-I'm so sorry Michael"
"It's okay baby it's okay"
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