I want it with you! | A #Vicley Fanfic story | Station 19

she doesn't - ch.35

That night after work I drove and drove. I wasn't ready to go home. I love my wife. I believe I've loved her since the second we laid eyes. We weren't supposed to fall in love, but everything else says otherwise. 

I drove and found a firefighter grief support where nobody would know me. I needed a space where I could be heard, but not found. I found that and it was refreshing hearing others stories. A guy stood up " anyone else..." 

I stood up " I'll say a few words...." The guy sat down " ok" 

I stood there " I'm Lucas. I'm actually a ways away from home, but I've been with Seattle FD for 15 years now. and I'm actually recently married. my wife she's my world. we deal with these losses a lot. we deal with it on the job but something about our own loss really hits me. it really scares me I guess. 6 weeks ago we lost our baby. my wife she was 6 weeks along. it was early and when I look at her I can tell she's in pain. she's recovered physically but mentally that's not my wife. I miss her laugh and smile. we deal with a lot but this this is something different."