I want it with you! | A #Vicley Fanfic story | Station 19

makes me think- ch.43

Trauma follows you. It's been said before and it will be said again. It gets better, but trauma never leaves. The memories of that loss will always remain within. You will always carry that. It will get better, but that's something that never goes away. We just have to learn to cope to get through the rest. 

We went home. I knew this was inevitable. I did the work. I put in the hours of therapy. We worked through our traumas. There's one thing though it never leaves. I laid in our bed. Luke looked at me " you ok.." I looked at him " i'm fine" He looked at me " talk to me... what was that back at the diner? 

I knew what it was. this was something that was hard to say. I looked at him " I saw a couple with a baby... and it.. it made me think about how i would of been 5 months pregnant by now." Luke looked at me " Vic..." I looked at him " i'm sorry" 

He looked at me " don't.. come here it's ok" I laid in his arms. He kissed my head " talk to me about this. for better or worse. that's what we said. let me carry this with you. you don't have to deal alone..." I let him kiss my check " i know"