Open Mind

chapter fourty

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Kamaria's POV

(4 months later)

My life has been heavenly for me, James and I are getting stronger together, the girls and I have been the closest ever, Jude and Mark are always there for me they don't complain at all if I always call them or take their girlfriends from them, Mark is very protective over me, he's just like a big brother to me, the way he acts It's so cute.

Right now I was in the living room watching a movie, it's already evening, since the guys thought that everything is ok for me now I started going back to the campus, well James drops me everyday even when he's not going to the campus and he picks me up.
James is at a dinner party with his father, their celebrating their company because thanks to James and his hard work he got one of the biggest deals the company ever had, I still remember that day which was his birthday, he came to pick me up from the campus, he got out of the car, ran to me and hugged me basically squeezing the shit out of me, I was happy that he was happy, just seeing him that way took my Breath away, he was still in his suit, he was sexy as hell, he wanted to take me out but then I refused and told him I was going to cook something for the both of us, he agreed.
That evening I cooked and placed the dish on the table, I waited for him in my room because he was taking a shower, I was so into my book I was reading that I never noticed him leaving his room, I walked down the stares and he was there in sweatpants and a t-shirt, he decorated the place with candles and red roses, I don't even know where he got those from but I didn't mind, I really enjoyed that night it was the best ever what I wanted was only him in that moment and it was like that.
I could have went with him to the dinner party but we all know that James father is an asshole towards me so I wanted to avoid ruining the night for the both of them so I stayed home.

In less than a week it's my birthday and I'm going to be nineteen, everyone always says I looked older with the character that I have, the way I dress etc, and I always thought about it and I always answer saying,
"I'm no kid either,God made me and then life shaped me in how I look now" then they look at me not saying anything.
I was thinking of just having dinner with the guys in a restaurant and spend the night in the house just staying with each other's company.

I heard the front door open and I heard someone stumble,
"Kamaria!!?" James screamed with anger, I jumped from the tone of his voice and got up running towards where he was, he was on the floor with blood on his knuckles, my heart skipped a bit, I was breathing heavily, I ran to him, i was suddenly hit with the smell of alcohol and it was so much I thought I was going to throw up,
I was kneeling in front of him,
"James why the Fuck are you drunk? Where is this blood coming from?" I said trying to get him off the ground, I was so afraid of what was happening, I was in the verge of crying, we got up groaning, he didn't say anything, he raised his head and looked at me, the rage came back flooding his eyes, he glared at me with hatred and pushed me so hard away from him, I had a strong impact with the wall behind me, I hit my head so hard that I fell on the floor with a loud scream, and held my head, my vision was becoming blurry, tears streamed down my eyes as I tried to calm the headache that I had,
"Your just like her, I should have fucking known you were no good, you just wanted me to fall for you with your pathetic story, I should have never took you in, you're a fucking whore just like all the girls our there", I weakly got up from the ground looking at him, I was crying my eyes out, I don't understand what is happening, I looked at him he looked like a demon possessed him, he was red, and shaking,glaring at me like I killed something special to him,
"James please calm down I don't know what's happening, I don't understand where all this is coming from, I did nothing wrong to you for you to call me out of my name!" I said backing away from him As he came towards me with small deadly steps,
"Oh you don't know what you did?" He said with a deep voice,
"Kamaria I trusted you and you fucking betray me, fucking stabbed me at the back!" He screamed, I was now on the wall crying, the thing is, I was fucking scared of him right now, I have never seen him this angry,
"J...James stop please let's talk about it, let's sit down for a bit and when you calm down we'll talk ok?, we'll figure what...." I was cut of when James wrapped him hand on my neck squeezing hard,
"I DON'T WANT TO TALK TO YOUR CHEATING ASS, I WILL NEVER TRUST YOU, I FUCKING HATE YOU RIGHT NOW! Your doing the exact same thing my fucking ex did, you want me to forgive you after cheating on me? Huh?" He kept screaming at me as I tried pulling his hand off me, I was having difficulty in breathing as I sobbed in his hand trying to break free,
"I didn't cheat on you I promised James, let go", he let go and punched the wall behind me,
"BULLSHIT!" He said then took out the folded note and threw it at me, I was holding my neck trying to lessen the pain which was not helping as I continued sobbing, I took the folded note and opened it and it was a picture of me and Luca kissing, I frowned then my eyes widened with realisation, this picture was taken the day we kissed at the beach months ago before I ended any connection with Luca,
"James please listen to me it's not a resent picture I swear we were not together at that time"
"Stop fucking lying to me Kamaria, you fucking went to the beach with the girls two fucking weeks ago am I right?" I shook my head trying to explain but he cut me off again,
"I don't want to hear your fucked up lie Kamaria, I want this to end, I'm fucking done with this cheating thing I'm so fucking done, your a lying fucking whor...." I got up tired of him calling me out of my name,
"Stop calling me a fucking whore, I told you! I'm not fucking cheating on you I promise" he came close to me again, we were few inches away from each other, I looked at him In the eyes, they were how I saw them earlier full of hatred,
"Get the Fuck out of my house and I hope to never see you again" I stared at him with teary eyes, I would have never expected him to react like this if he really trusted me, but then again I was not going to blame him for reacting like this, everyone would get this same reaction in seeing in a picture your girlfriend kissing another guy, he was going to realise it one day that he was wrong, for not trusting and believing me, I was going to leave him alone till when he comes back to his senses then I'll think of allowing him back into my life or not,
"Ok James"I whispered nodding taking a few steps away from him, I took a deep breath the closed my eyes,
" I love you James" my voice broke as I said it, I stood there hoping he would say it back but he never did, I opened my eyes, I saw tears in his eyes that were caged there wanting an escape but James never allowed it to happen, I turned around and walked up the stares going to my room.
I parked all my belongings taking them and putting them in my car, I had a Lot of things but I made sure I took every single thing that I had in that house and drove away.

I parked in my garage and got out, I looked around and the lights were all off, Kali and Jade never sleep this early but maybe their sleeping, I walked towards the front door and opened it, everywhere was silent, I'm assuming their at the guys house, I release the air of relief I was holding, I needed my space and I really wanted to be alone, I know normal people would call their best friends to come over and cheer them up but I'm not normal I like my space, I need time alone and when I say time I mean like a week or even more alone, I'll just text them and I hope they'll understand my point of view.
I went back outside to pack up my things and take them to my room.
After 30 minutes I unpacked, I stripped and went into the shower, I opened water allowing the cold water to flow down my body and I tried to relax but I couldn't, I let the tears I was holding go and stream down my eyes.
After what felt like forever I got out and dried up and lotioned my body, I went in my closet and wore Calvin Klein sport bra and shorts, I walked towards my mirror to look at myself, and I gasped at what was in front of me, I had bruises and print marks on my neck, my eyes were red and my face was swollen already, I closed my eyes not wanting to cry but then memories started flooding my mind, I squeezed my eyes trying to get them away, James eyes filled with anger and hatred, his hands on my neck squeezing hard, him accusing me and calling me out of my name, John's eyes, his evil smile, him in my room. I shook my head trying to get them away,
"James is different he's just angry" I kept repeating out loud, the memories continued, I was having a horrible headache I held my head, I felt dizzy and I fell to the ground and just layed there for a moment.
After a moment I got up and layed on my bed and tried to sleep.