the boys next door

part 15

a week later

it was a party tonight and i was getting ready at the boys house. we got in the car and drove only down the road until we got to the house. it was a more busy party than last time and the whole house was crowded.

"I'm going to get a drink" Luke said and kissed my head and disappeared in to the crowd of people. me and beau went in to the living room and started dancing. we were amazing. Luke came in about an hour later looking a bit drunk, well more than a bit. he hugged me and started dancing with me. his breath smelt of alcohol witch was really unattractive.

it started to get late so we went back to the boys house and i got in to my PJ's. i felt arms around my waist and a head on my shoulder. Luke started badly singing in my ear  and i joined in. i lay on the sofa and Luke snuggled in to me. i felt my phone go off and i had a twitter notification, they kept popping up on the screen but i ignored it as it was normally fans. i put my phone on silent and felt to sleep.

i got woken up by the snoring of Luke.i stood up and walked in to the kitchen and made a cup of tea. i lent on the kitchen side and pulled out my phone. i had over 100 notification on twitter. i went on my page and saw i had tweets from fans. i started to read them and they were all pretty normal until i got one witch read

how could Luke do that i though he really liked you

well that's confusing what had he done. as i scrolled down i started seeing more and more tweets like that until i got to one witch a link . i clicked on it to see a picture of Luke kissing a girl witch his hand on her ass basically kissing her face off. i was so shocked i dropped my tea and felt tears burn in the back of my eyes. how when the party it must have been the party. i stormed in to the living room with tears treating to roll down my face.Luke was now awake now flicking across the channels and smiled when i walked in

"hey babe'

i gave him a look of discussed" don't hey babe me"i said and he looked confused " do you have something to tell me about last night"i said and i could feel tears in the corner of my eyes.

"no"he said looking more confused

'well how do you explain this "said and shoved the phone in his face as a tear rolled down my cheek. his face looked shocked and i stormed up stair 

"no rachie wait "i herd him shout but i just ran in to the bath room and locked the door and let the tears roll. i lent agents the door and let my body slide down it until i hit the floor. i brought my knees up to my chest and just cried. i herd foot steps running up the stairs and then someone started to try and undo the door handle.

"rachie please let me in"i herd Luke say. i just ignored him

"rachie please i cant even remember doing that"he said and i felt angry burn in side of me

"LUKE DO YOU REALLY THINK I WANT TO TALK TO YOU RIGHT NOW" i shouted. i herd shuffles from out side the door and then silence.

i was in there for about twenty minuets when i herd a knock on the door. i ignored it but it kept knocking

"who is it"i said 

"its beau"the voice said and i stood up and hovered my hand over the door handle

"is Luke there"i said

"no its just me"i turned the door handle and flung my arms around beau. he hugged me back  and i cried in to his shoulder

"how, how could he do this" i said and cried in to his shoulder

"it was a drunk mistake and he cant even remember it, he is just as up set as you"he said and i herd footsteps behind me and i turned around to see a red eyed Luke with tears rolling down his face. 

"rachie i can explain please i don't even know who that girl was"he said and a tear rolled down my cheek

"how do i know your not lying'i managed to say though the tears.

"rachie we have been though so much together we cant let a drunk mistake destroy all the progress we have made and i love you with all my heart, more than any person could love another"he said and whipped a tear from his face.

i just stood there not knowing what to do. beau went and hugged Luke and i just walked down stairs past them and hugged jai

"he does love you you know"jai said and i new he did i just cant believe he would kiss somebody.i let go of jai and ran and grabbed my phone and jacket and walked out the house. i just kept walking and walking. i cried until i could cry no more. i got to a park and sat on the swings and gently rocked back and forth. i was angry and confused and i secretly missed Luke but i was so pissed off with him right now. i just sat there and watched the sun start to dip down in to the sky line. i looked at my phone and i had had missed calls from all of the boys. i just put my phone back in my pocket and stood up from the swing.  my head started to hurt but i tried to push the pain in to the back of my mind. i don't want to get Ill again.

i started to walk back down the side walk towards my house. my head was hurting and my phone kept vibration and i just wanted to sleep. i put  my keys in the door and though my jacket on to the kitchen table. i though my self on my sofa and turned on the tv. my phone went off and it was beau so i decided to pick up

"where the fuck have you been, i have been trying to get though to you for hours i was so worried about you , we were so worried about you"he said 

"I'm sorry i was just so pissed off it was in the heat of the moment and i needed space"i said and beau signed

" you need to listen to Luke he cant even remember the girls name it was a drunk mistake"i wanted to hang up on him, i was not in the mood to talk about Luke right now.

" ill come see him tommorrow tell him, tell him that i love him i just needed space"

"okay night " beau said and i hung up. i went up stairs and put on baggy gray tracks and a white flouted top and lay on the bed. i wanted to forgive Luke, i over reacted its not like he slept with her.

my head was still hurting, not again i don't was to be ill again. i went in to the bathroom and took out my pills witch i had to take daliy. i swollowed the pill and lay back down on my bed. i dont want to tell any one my head hurts, i dont want to feel diffrenent from everyone eles. i want to be normal and happy and have a normal life span. i felt tears in the back of my eyes but i pushed them away 

sleep killls cancer i said too my self and then drifted off.