Felicity

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Don't come at me. These are all prewritten chapters so complain all you want 😭
Warning: Angst/Depressed thoughts, suicidal thoughts

Keith

Staring at the wall clock with a blank expression, I watch as the seconds tick by slowly.

1:30 am... How much longer until I can die? Not like anyone would care-...

Blinking, the time shifts to 9:30 in the morning as I curl up in my blankets; trying to hide from the rays of the sun and shield the knocking at the door.

"Akira, good morning. Your appointment with Ms.Wilts begins in 10 minutes. Freshen yourself up and head downstairs please. Thank you."

Groaning slightly, I move from my ball to stand up before feeling a searing pain throughout my lower half; standing up to shuffle to the bathroom.

Grabbing a rag, I scrub my body clean with it as I think back to yesterday; terrified to even leave my room.

How pathetic am I? Scared of a bunch of pussy ass alphas...

Stepping out of the shower, I threw on some sweats and turtleneck to hide the marks on my neck.

Leaving the room, I walked slowly downstairs to see all of the alphas and betas asking about Ms.Wilts before she smiles brightly upon seeing me. "Keith! Good to see you. I was thinking we could talk outside today considering how crowded the living room is at the moment. Is that fine?"

Giving a small nod, I rub my arms as I begin to walk to the exit of the house while looking at the floor. James tried to wave at me to catch my attention, but I ignore him.

Hearing the door close behind me, I continue to look everywhere else but at Ms.Wilts as she places a hand on my waist before I close my eyes and quickly push her off. "N-no..."

"Keith? What's wrong? You're awfully quiet today and more reserved that usual. And your best friend was trying to greet you just now." She points out as I sit down on the front porch while she sits next to me.

"It's nothing."

"It's not nothing. Look run me through your weekend so far. The alphas and betas said that there was a party yesterday. Did you go?" She asks as a flashback to last night fills my head.

The screaming. The whimpers. The slaps. The searing pain. The white. The yearning to end it all. The red. The purples. The blues.

"I don't want to talk about it." I whisper as tears fill my eyes while I begin to shake lightly. "I don't want to talk about it... I don't want to talk about it."

"Keith. It's obvious you need to talk about it. To someone at the most. If not me, how about Ms.Lynn or James. Maybe they can help you out since they've known you for years-!" She tries to suggest before I look up at her with tears in my eyes, leaving her flabbergasted.

"No. They can't know... I can't say..." I choked out as I scraped at my head, looking for answers. "T-they told me no-not to-!"

"Alpha command...? Who alpha commanded you? When?" Ms.Wilts looks at me with a look of pity as I shake my head. "They told you not to tell... What happened at the party Keith?"