Pretty Lies (Bellamy Blake Fanfic)

Red Sky At Morning

A boat. Not an island, not some random spot on the beach, a fucking boat. I let Luna walk away, not even letting her be a concern of mine as unease settles in my stomach. Not knowing where I am puts me on edge, and knowing that there is literally no escape doesn't ease my nerves in the least,

"We'll get her to take the AI, if Lincoln told us she could help, she will," Octavia reassures me, but I shake my head,

"Sometimes, even Lincoln was wrong about people. And no offense to your mission to save the world, but Luna isn't one of my concerns right now. If she doesn't take the AI, Clarke will only think of something else, she always does," I reply, staring out into the open sea before me,

"Well, I'm going to head to dinner, join us if you want," Octavia turns away then, and I don't even question how she knows this is even happening, I just continue to stare out into the sea. I don't know how long I stand there, just gazing at the ever shifting waves, all I know is that when I finally feel his presence beside me, the sun has set, and the moon is reflecting against the water,

"Are you cold?" Bell asks, his voice barely above a whisper as he stands next to me. I shake my head, my body not bothered by the soft wind pulling at my hair,

"There's food inside, and a fire, we still have a chance to change Luna's mind," Bellamy persists, but I shake my head,

"I'd rather be out here, where I can forget about Allie, and Luna, and Clarke and everything else going wrong in my life right now," I answer, my eyes not moving from the sea in front of me,

"Am I on that list?" he says finally, and it takes every ounce of my being not to turn around and collapse into his arms,

"I don't think you ever were," I admit, and I can practically feel his own surprise at my words. We stand in silence or several moment, neither of knowing exactly what to say,

"... I still mean it. I still love you, and I think I always will," he announces quietly, and each word sends a knife into my heart as I shake my head,

"And I-I love you too," I respond, my heart pounding with each word that comes out of my mouth. I hear his clothes ruffle as he turns to face me, but I don't dare to turn around, "I love you.. but I can't be with you. We aren't good together Bellamy. We-I'm not good for you. I'm not good for anyone at this point... I need to fix myself before I can even think about being with you again. We had our shot, and it didn't work out, and I think it's time we both move on so we can-"

"No," he interrupts me with such force that I whirl around, my eyes widening as I take every inch of him in. He takes one step closer to me, then another, until our bodies are nearly pressed together, and our breath mingles in front of us.

My body comes alive with every slight touch of him against me, and I can't help but want to lean into him, to feel him being pressed tighter against me, "You make me feel alive Kat, and I could give a rats ass about anything else right now other than you," My eyes look up to meet his, and I get lost in his lovely brown orbs as he leans in closer, until our mouths are merely an inch away from each other. 

I hold my breath as he takes that final leap, and connects our lips in a soul crushing, lingering kiss that makes my toes curl beneath me. I lean into him, and when he finally pulls away, I realize how very much I missed this feeling,

"You can't tell me that this doesn't feel right, that we don't belong together in some crazy, messed up way," he breathes, and one second, my body is flush against his, and the next he steps back, before whirling around and walking back the way he came.

I can still feel the imprint of his lips against mine, and my body is alight with passion and lust as I peer after him. Fuck...

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