Memories from last night were unexpected. Who would have thought I was willing to help Chaeyoung? I understand her situation, and I can see she's trying. I see it in her eyes, she tries to disguise the smile on her face, but there's fear inside.
Right now, Chaeyoung and I are in the cafe to eat. I was happy knowing that she had decided to go out. Lisa and Jisoo were still fast asleep in their rooms, and we didn't want to disturb them.
Just then, the waiter came, and I was sure as hell starving when I read the food and beverages on the menu.
"Two orders of fries and burgers, two chocolate cakes, and three milk ice cream," I nodded as the waiter repeated my order. I stare at Chaeyoung, who seems to be looking at me in shock.
"Are you sure that we can finish this?" She asked, and I gave her a look. "Trust me. We will." I winked as I took out my wallet for the payment when she stopped me. "Let me pay. You ordered most of the food anyway." She says as she takes out her card.
Once the food arrived, I immediately shoved the food in my mouth and smiled idiotically. I just realized I hadn't eaten these kinds of food for the past months because I rarely ate out in New York.
After a minute or so, I saw Chaeyoung staring at me. "Why aren't you eating?" I asked as the tension between us grew awkward. "You look so cute having all that food stuffed in your mouth. It makes your chubby cheeks visible." She says as she grins, showing her eye smile. I looked away as I started to heat up.
"S-Shut up,"
"Chubby Mandu," She calls out as she keeps smiling like an idiot.
Wait, what did she say? I held my head and instantly felt pain, I saw a blonde girl, but her face was blurred. "Ruby Jane, are you alright?" Chaeyoung asks worriedly as she notices me. I shook my head as I smiled at her.
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C H A E Y O U N G
After eating, I took Ruby Jane to Seongsan. She mentioned that she would like to become the sunset, and I'm here to take her in the evening. Though everywhere in Jeju is a perfect place to watch the sunrise or sunset since we are surrounded by nature and the ocean. Here we are by the beach not too far from Seongsan's tourist spot, Sunrise peak.
"This place is wonderful," She exclaimed as I nodded. I stare as she smiles. No matter how painful, that gummy smile reminds me of someone. It never fails to wash away all my worries. I don't want it to end because if it does, I'm back to reality. That it's not Jennie, and it's Ruby Jane who insanely looks like her.
The reason why I took her here is that it brings back memories. Ruby Jane and Jennie enjoy the sunset, and I can't help but bring her to the place where Jennie also enjoys the evening. I took Jennie here sometimes whenever we visited my grandparents. We'd walk around the beach, hold hands, eat, and watch the sunset by the infamous Sunrise Peak.
I also realized why we keep coming back here. I find it peaceful and romantic at the same time. Few people come here since Sunrise Peak is stealing its attention from tourists. But like I said, Jeju has a lot of beaches.
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"Chaeyoung, of all places, why did you take me here?" She asks curiously.
It's because of your resemblance to Jennie.
As much as I want to avoid remembering Jennie, I can't. You not only look like her. You have similar tastes to what you ordered at the cafe. Is this a punishment for what I've done to Jennie? Meeting someone who looks like her? Knowing full well too that Ruby Jane's married.
"It's because you love to see the sunset. I also took my first love to see the sunset here." We stopped as we stared at the sun almost setting down, hitting the peak. She widened her eyes at the view and quickly took out her phone to take a picture of the sunset.
"Then why did you take me here when you took your first love here? Shouldn't you be taking me somewhere else rather than here?" She asks, doubting whether she should be here or not.
"Because we've ended. And I wanna have new memories here." I answered. But there was more than what I wanted to say.
"Oh,"
"Was your first love your wife?" She asks, and I felt my eyes watering.
"Yes, and I'm not giving her up."
"Aren't you just hurting yourself? She left, remember? Is she that beautiful that she had the guts to leave someone as amazing as you?" I giggled at her comment.
Because I strongly feel that I'll see her again, she's the only one I'll love.
"You just complimented me," I say, and she shyly looks away from my gaze.
"Y-Yeah, is there something wr-rong with complimenting you?" She stuttered, and I couldn't help but chuckle.
"Yes, she's beautiful, even more than the word itself." She stops for a while. "You seem to be very in love with your first love."
"To the extent that I married her, of course," I smiled.
"How lucky,"
"I'm too much in love with Jennie that I want to find and do everything to be with her again. Jennie." I stopped as I mentioned her name. "She was like music, and I longed to dance. Her heartbeat and I begged for the chance. Her words were the vocals, and I was put in a trance. Her smile was the melody, and I fell in love."
"You are crying," I touched my cheek, and indeed, I was crying. I took a deep breath. Being with a person looking like Jennie can make me cry more. I didn't even notice that I was crying. What a pity. I then wiped away my tears since I was becoming like an idiot in front of Ruby Jane.
"Pretend that I'm Jennie," She says, and I widen my eyes as I stare at her.
"What?"
"Pretend I am here; go tell everything you want to tell her. It'll help you release the pain somehow." She suggested, and I couldn't help but smile. Why does it feel like I won't be pretending since she looks like you?
I stare into her eyes.
"Love, I know I've made a lot of mistakes. I don't blame you for leaving since I was the one who ruined our marriage. I will do everything to have you back. I love you. Until then, don't pour your heart into someone else, Because if you do, I don't think I'll be able to handle it."
