Don't Say Goodbye II Chaennie

Chapter 15

C H A N Y E O L

"It was me, okay!" I yelled, and Chaeyoung looked at me differently. She was confused. 

It was my fault. 

"Everything was my goddamn fault," I cracked. I never wanted to hurt anyone. But I was desperate to show my parent's that I was better. That I was someone to be proud of. 

"And I just wanna say that I'm sorry for everything," I added, tears threatening to fall from my eyes. 

"You don't have to-"

"No, I have to say it. Cause it was wrong, I was in the wrong." I bite my lip, suppressing a sob. "You don't understand. You don't understand what it's like to be me. Nobody does but you, probably more than anyone. Would have understood me." 

With every word coming out of my mouth. I was relieved and scared at the same time. I've been wanting to confess everything I've done wrong. I wasn't happy with what I was doing. My life right now has become meaningless. 

Chaeyoung just sat on the ground. Silent. It's a lot to take in, especially from her once closest cousin. 

"Why?" She asks, almost in a whisper. 

"Because I was jealous of you," Chaeyoung stared at me once I said that. "I was jealous of how successful you were in life. How better you were than me. My parents were sick of watching me below you."

"Guess it runs in the family, huh? We have the worst parents." She chuckled, and I smiled sadly.

"I-I didn't want to cut ties with you. But the more I was with you, the more I killed myself. Thoughts of you being the best at everything while I sucked at it. I felt suffocated because every time my parents saw you with me was nothing but disappointment." 

"Why couldn't you be like Chaeyoung? She's smart. Unlike you, who's nothing but a bastard." 

I never really cared whenever they compared me with Chaeyoung because I've always believed I was better at what I loved. But it turns out my parents never supported me with what I wanted. Both of our parents would always compete. But Chaeyoung me, we never treated ourselves as enemies.

We enjoyed each other's company alongside Lisa and BamBam. We had each other, and that was all it mattered. All of us were suffering in the dark in our ways. But we never fail to see the bright side of life. I was so lucky to have them. 

Until my parent's punishment was too much.

"They'd lock me inside my room because they were ashamed of having an illegitimate son. I wasn't good enough." I sobbed and sat down opposite her.

"Mom! Please open the door. Can I at least have some water? Food? Please. Anyone," I pleaded, banging the door nonstop until they'd open. 

"They'd let me sleep outside without a blanket to survive the cold night. I was scared and lonely. I wanted to tell you, but I just couldn't. I was blinded by revenge." 

"Then who was Sooyoung in your life?" She asked, and I couldn't help but smile at the name. 

"When you had Jennie in your life. I had Sooyoung. She was the one who made me feel alive. And for the first time in years. I was happy. She made me forget the pain and the urge to do something bad. We were together for five years. I married her. We were happy." 

"What happened?" She asks, clearly understanding where my short-lived happiness is going. 

"When my parents knew I was married to someone who wasn't wealthy nor successful. It got them angry. I was living a simple life, yet they had to destroy it. Mom and Dad went for ways to ruin our relationship, which they did in the end. We were robbed, and the money I'd saved without my parent's help was all gone. We were barely surviving. Until Mr. and Mrs. Kim offered help."

"Jennie's parents?" She asks, and I nod. 

"She told me there is a way for us to live happily. I didn't want to believe it at first, but I desperately needed to show my parents how good I was. Even just once." 

Mr. and Mrs. Kim offered Sooyoung and me a deal. I was frustrated and pressured by the fact that my parents wanted me to take over Park Entertainment even though Chaeyoung was handling it well. Sooyoung and I were listening to Kim's offer. 

"I need you both to divorce before our deal starts." She says, and I widen my eyes.

"W-What?" I say in fear. "Why would you want us to divorce?" 

"You have the company while Sooyoung gets to have Jennie." 

I furrow my eyebrows in confusion. "Why would she want Jennie? Isn't she Chaeyoung's wife?" 

"Yes, she's Chaeyoung's wife and my daughter. I disapprove of their relationship, and so I have a plan. Get Chaeyoung involved in a scandal. Not only will this ruin their marriage, but it will also ruin her image as the CEO  of South Korea's famous music industry. If that happens, you get to have the company. Haven't you been interested in music, Chanyeol? At the same time, a CEO and a singer aren't that bad." 

"Why would you do that to them?"

"I heard that Sooyoung is the granddaughter of the famous company of SM Entertainment. SM has wide connections to other big companies, even out of the country. Our company desires to be in it. It's a great benefit for us. And for you, if you agree." 

"Sooyoung and Jennie? Are you even serious right now?" I growled. Not accepting this nonsense. 

"Sooyoung and Jennie used to go to the same university. Didn't you have a massive crush on her for years?" Mrs. Kim paused as she looked at Sooyoung, who was silent. 

"With Chaeyoung and Jennie breaking up. You'll have her then. Chanyeol gets to have Park Entertainment, which will satisfy your parents, and Sooyoung inherits SM Entertainment once she marries our daughter. Kim Holdings and SM Entertainment used to be the most powerful and closest associates. It's a win-win situation." Mrs. Kim explained, and I couldn't help but feel disgusted.

How could she do this to her daughter? 

"The choice is yours." She ends and leaves us both. It was silent for a while. It was a lot to take in. I was about to ruin my cousin's life. 

"We can't do this," Sooyoung breaks the silence, eyes filled with worry and fear. 

We were both tearing up from the pressure. We didn't know what to do. It was hard. 

"It was all my fault, I agreed. I forced Sooyoung to agree." I sigh deeply. I regret doing this to us. Soon after, tears were streaming down my face. 

"One thing about entering marriage is that you may disagree on many things, but you must never agree to give up." I sobbed. I gave us up. Chaeyoung was also crying. We were broken from the beginning, and I had to fuck it up even more. 

This time, I was willing to make things right, even if it meant sacrificing many things. Suppose there was one thing I regret in life. It was giving up on my marriage with Sooyoung. 

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