ᴜɴsᴛᴏᴘᴘᴀʙʟᴇ [•JENO•]

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After they finished, with their 'therapy' I was in my 'room' again shivering, trying to calm myself. I should've killed a little girl, and I refused to, so they killed her in front of my eyes. She was begging, begging to be free again

But they killed her with no second thought, it made me shiver in fear, I've hurt and killed a human before, but I never killed innocent ones, I never thought that something could affect me that way

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The time was passing their methods were getting worse day by day, and I was losing it. I had to escape, I don't know how long it's since I've been here but I went through 23 'therapy seasons' meaning I'm here for around 25 days.

I had to get out, I don't know why the boys aren't getting us out of here, and what's taking them so long, but I will make sure to rip their eyes out If they don't have a proper explanation for me.

The time was passing slowly, and even if I wasn't eating I didn't felt any kind of hunger. I just wanted to escape, I haven't seen Jeno in a long time, I haven't heard him scream. It worried me that he gave up, that he just let him take over his mind.

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I was giving up, my body was giving up and my mental health was giving up.

I couldn't take it anymore, I couldn't think of them anymore, and I couldn't help it.

I didn't want it anymore.....

I felt like the boys gave upon us, I know they wouldn't, but my sick mindsets couldn't stop telling me that. I just needed something, something to distract me

It's been too long, I stopped counting at the 36th therapy. It was getting worse, I was crazy. I wasn't screaming anymore, the hits didn't hurt, and the videos weren't disturbing enough anymore.

To know that Jeno was in the room next to me, but I wasn't able to touch him, hug him or talk to him

I sat on the mattress I had on the floor, my back pressed against the wall, the wall that was holding me from seeing him 

I knocked on the wall, a rhythm. I didn't know what I was doing, but I just repeated it. I heard knocking from the other side, I stopped for a while, I didn't think it was real. But the knocking continued, even if I wasn't doing it anymore

I smiled a sad smile, tears running down my face, it was the first interaction between us in days. And I didn't felt alone anymore, I closed my eyes, sobs escaping, my body was shaking uncontrollably and this was the first time I broke down.

The first time I cried since I'm here, it made me crazy. All this was just too sick to belive

The knocking stopped, and I heard the door open. Not mine but his means it was time, it's his turn.

I closed my eyes, feeling sorry. The dreamies often came into my mind, I was happy they are fine 

I was still wearing the earrings, I hoped. Hoped that they will get us soon, and I will be able to sleep again. Eat Kun's food, and listen to Lucas's weird talking, I missed all of them 

"Please....just get me out off here" my voice sounded unfamiliar, I wasn't talking to anyone for the past couple of weeks.

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Two more days passed, Jeno and I knocked on the wall when we felt lonely, or when we're about to break down. But it wasn't enough

I needed to find a way out of here, the room they are always keeping us, while I waited for them to start, I had the chance to put the drugs they are using for us, into their water or something. Maybe I could get weapons or the keys. I don't care if we're in a forest, we just had to get out of here, and away from here.

I waited for my turn, and that came quickly. The door to Jeno's room closed, and mine opened. The guard didn't even have to drag me away anymore, I just followed behind

"The doctors will be here soon" I mentally scoffed at the word 'doctor' I looked at the big closet full with pills, and there were sleeping pills, I put them into the coffee that was on the table, placing the pills back before sitting down again. I couldn't stop shaking, well it was a habit now, my legs bouncing up and down my hands fiddling around. I waited, and they came soon enough. Drinking from their coffee, making me grin. But I hid it, they shouldn't suspect anything.

"Let's start" they started their therapy, It was the day where I just looked at videos, videos that should disturb me, but it didn't work in any way. Because I was somewhere else with my thoughts for days already. They drunk from their coffee, and I had to stop myself from smirking. I hope the pills will work, but I know how long it takes for them to knock out

After all, they were using it for me, when I wasn't doing what they wanted. So I just waited for the 3 minutes to pass.

I looked at the screen, my legs still bouncing up and down while I was sitting on the chair, and soon the 'doctors' sat down. They yawned, they never talked to me, there was no use because I wouldn't respond anyway. I didn't let them get to me.

Ms. Jung falls asleep first, and her husband following close behind. No guards were allowed in the therapy seasons, so it was easy for me to get the keys and get out of the room.

To roam around the floors was a bit harder because there were guards walking around. I saw the door to my freedom, I could escape in just a second. But Jeno, I'm not leaving him here.

The guards were talking with each other, laughing, and doing some weird gestures. I had the chance to run down the stairs, but I almost tripped

My heart sank into my pants, I took a deep breath before unlocking Jeno's door, I tried to be quiet as possible.

When I opened the big, heavy door I saw him there. He was on the floor, head between knees while he hugged himself

"Jeno" I whispered catching his attention, he looked up, surprised to see me. He stood up, making his way towards me

"what are you-"

"No time to explain, we have to go"