Hoax (VBoys Series #1)

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EUNICE

"Kanino naman daw nagseselos?"

Inilingan ko ang tanong na 'yon ni Indigo. Kasalukuyan kaming nasa condo ko ngayon. I didn't speak because I didn't have an answer to her question. He's too... confusing. Jaiden is.

"I don't know. Maybe Gio? Is that absurd?" I said, making weird hand gestures.

Indigo chuckled, looking away. "Seloso naman pala si Engineer."

Sinamaan ko siya ng tingin, though she didn't notice since she was busy looking somewhere else. I also looked away before puckering my lips to nothing. Sa ganoong estado ay marahan akong bumuntong-hininga.

"Parang mahihigop naman ako sa lalim ng buntong-hininga mo, 'te. Hinay naman," banat ni Indigo, tinatawanan na naman ako. "Ano ba kasi? Ano ba kayo ni Jaiden?"

"Magkatrabaho!" I said in a matter of fact tone.

Pinaningkitan ako ng mata ni Indigo habang nakakunot din ang kaniyang noo. She looked at me as if she was observing my soul. She placed her drink on the coffee table in between us, then she pointed her finger at me.

"Ikaw, Martin, ah? Tapatin mo nga ako," she asked in a "scaring" tone. "Naka-move on ka na ba talaga riyan sa ex mo?"

"Of course!" I exclaimed loudly, making Indigo flinch. "Why would you think that I still haven't gotten over him? Wala na akong nararamdaman para kay Jaiden!" I explained, leaning on the couch.

Indigo clutched her chest dramatically as she leaned away. "Maka-sigaw naman. Galit na galit, mars?"

"No, sorry." agad na pagpapaumanhin ko.

Indigo sighed. "Ikaw naman kasi, lapit ka rin nang lapit. Hindi naman porket magkapatid kayo sa mata ng mga tao ay dapat close na close kayo. May mga kapatid naman diyan na kahit magkadugo, walang kibuan, ah?"

"So, what are you suggesting? That I should avoid him all the time?" I asked as my brows furrowed.

"Oo," she shrugged. "I mean, kung iyang pagiging malapit niyo 'yung nagpapagulo riyan sa utak mo, e'di... alisin mo 'yung isa."

My brow arched more. "'Yung pagiging malapit namin?"

"Hindi, 'yung utak mo. Alisin mo 'yang utak mo nang wala nang magulo," pamimilosopo niya, gaining a glare from me. "Charot. E'di siyempre, 'yung pagiging close niyo. Dahil lang naman doon kaya ka nagkakaganiyan, 'di ba?"

I couldn't deny that Indigo was right. Wala namang ibang bumabagabag sa'kin kung hindi ang pagiging masyadong malapit namin ni Jaiden. That's all that's been bugging me and triggering his actions lately. Kung hindi kami nagkikibuan, e'di walang problema.

I'm not saying that just because he's my ex, we shouldn't be around each other anymore. He's not just an ex to me. He's a part of the bitter past that I've been trying to run away from for years. Being with him is like running back to the history I'm trying to escape from. It's bad for me. For my feelings.

Yes, I have moved on from Jaiden, that's for sure. But it isn't impossible for those feelings come back to me. Hindi madaling kalimutan ang pinagsamahan namin ni Jaiden. And everytime I'm close to him, mas nahihirapan lang ako.

"Indigo..." tawag ko sa kaibigan.

She didn't answer, but she looked at me and raised bith of her brows, asking why I called. Huminga ako nang malalim, composing myself so I could ask her the question I had in mind.