𝐖𝐡𝐞𝐫𝐞 𝐲𝐨𝐮𝐫 𝐥𝐨𝐯𝐞 𝐥𝐢𝐞𝐬

80

It had been some time now.
Funny.
Time just seems to slip from my grasp. One minute I'm stuck in a hospital, next I'm being basically spoon feed and treated like glass, and now I'm being lead carefully through the new empty dorms.
"I should arrive earlier, as to not cause too much anxiety" my ass.
I'm doing fine. I think. Hopefully.

"This is your room miss y/n. You're located next to Todoroki, so if you have any problems please don't hesitate to ask him."
I nod before entering the room. It was large but small, complicated but simple. Perfect.

I sit down in front of a box ready to unpack, Maybe having my own little room to escape too will help me...
What am I talking about? I don't need help i'm fine.

Again time has seemed to slip by my fingers, I swear I blinked and now my room has been unpacked.
A tidy white bed sat against the wall to the right with a small white bedside table next to it, and a desk was tucked away in the opposite corner.A couple beauty products sat on top as well as perfume, I have no idea but for some reason I am addicted to perfume.
My closet was unpacked and the bathroom was clean. Just how I like it.

I walk in to test the feeling, you know see how someone would see it if they walked in and how homey it felt. But once I reached the middle my toes dug into the soft carpet under me. Something felt..... off.

I gaze around the room blankly before eyeing the empty bed side table. I remember throwing all the boxes out into the hall for the cleaners ( Lazy I know)... maybe I forgot something. I quick slip out and rummage through the cardboard. That's when I stumbled apon the-
My eyes tested up as an unknown smile crawls onto my face, as I delicately held the object in my hands. It was her little speaker... It was Reis speaker.

The speaker we played music from hours on end as we shed tears, and let our past take its affect on us. The speaker we played music from as we danced around, partying like it was a rave. The speaker we played music from as we dressed each other up in stupid outfits to cheer the other up. 

I held it close before shuffle back into my room, sniffling as I went. I gently place the object down and happily smile to myself. It just looked right.

I sit on my bed staring blankly at the ground, It had been a few minutes since I heard my classmates talking outside my door. They didn't know I was here, sitting in a painful silence. I tried to get up and talk, but the fear felt like it tied me down. I was stuck to the ground, suffering as they obliviously chatted away like there was no tomorrow.

"This is Todorokis room!"
I feel pain eat away at my chest as everyone laughed away at him before so... aloof. Why can't I be there? but- I don't want to be there. Do I?

"This is the last room!"
I heard someone call from the outside, I swallow thickly as I stare at the handle.

"Do we even know If someone owns this?"
Some laughing was shared as they bickered outside.

Breathe. They're not going to come in.

You have control y/n. Tears pricked at my vision as my breathing started going out of line, my heart beating unnaturally fast. Breathe.

I stare down at my hands as things around me started spinning.

Just like before.

My fingers started burning as the blue started magically appearing, dancing wildly along my palms and fingers, taunting me with the grace.
Look at me. Look at the evil that resides in your body y/n. Your flames. They. killed. someone.

I harshly dig my fingers into my palms as the flames grew hotter, burning my skin. I choke out a sob as my skin started screaming for mercy. Then It was gone. It all disappeared like it was nothing. I glance down only to let out a terrified scream. The-

Blood.

Everywhere.

I slam myself into the wall as the white walls around me started dripping, the red liquid spilling over the crispy grey carpet. Staining everything.

I watch on in horror as it slowly filled my room- my safe escape, with the disgusting red. It started getting higher and higher, my panic rising with it. I reel back as It swallows my legs whole, eating away at my skin. I felt like I was in a sinking boat, water rapidly filling the little air space I had left but this water was actually blood.

I choke out a strangled scream before It cut my air off, completely filling my room in liquid. I couldn't breathe. I cant breath. Help me.

I grip at my neck as my lungs screamed for air. I cant breathe. I CANT BREATHE.

"y........n"

I C- I dig my nails into my skin, my throat aching as my own blood mixed into the sea of red.

"Y/.........n"

My eyes remained closed tight as my head started pounding violently, loud banging ringing in my ears.

I.... can't breathe.

"Y/N!"
My eye shoot open as I harshly suck in air, before violently coughing. Sobs rip through my fragil body as my name got called.

I almost died. I almost died. I almost died.

I didn't have control.

"Y/n!.... Y/n! Hey hey. Y/n... look at me- breathe. breathe."

I stare at them in horror as they got closer, my head pounding against my skull painfully. 

"hey... look at me. Breathe. Copy my breathing.. In... Out... In-"
They had both hands placed on my shoulders as they breathed deeply, I tried to stay calm but I couldn't. They didn't feel like they were real... wait. My quirk- I could hurt them!

"I-...."
I croak out for the first time in a long time, my voice hadn't been used in so long.

They freeze as my soft voice drifts into their ears.

"I could hurt you-... I don't.. have control-"
I pathetically call out, they quickly take action and grow closer as I try to slip away. 

"No- No no.. It's okay. You won't hurt me. I trust that you have control. Just don't go away. Your hurt. Let me help you."
I break down at their words before they wrap me up in a tight hug, my face dug deep into their neck as tears flowed down my cheeks, staining their white top.

"It's okay- Listen to my voice-.... Okay... Y/-"
My world started going fuzzy as my head finally got its revenge and shut down, As I slipped into the darkness a soft voice followed me the whole way. Like a light showing me the way, leading me towards the exit. It saved me. It helped me. Just like they said.