He's The Subject I Can't Have [ON-GOING]

Chapter Six (Poem: Day 2 of 41)

Nanlalaki ang mga mata kong nakatingin sa mga grade twelve na nag-uusap sa ibaba. May isang nakatingin sa amin, mga grade eleven, habang bumababa kami ng hagdan.

I saw Christine biting her upper lip and walk adamantly down to the ground floor while me, together with Lorraine and Kisses are silently praying for our soul. Char. Exaggerated masyado.

But seriously. Wala naman sigurong nakarinig kay Christine right? If meron, somebody might make a fuss dahil nga, fresh pa 'yung letter incident na nangyari last Friday.

"Dimwit." Lorraine whispered at naglakad papalayo sa akin.

I grasp for Kisses' arm nang huminto siya saglit dahil tinawag siya ni Ate Leslie.

Double fuck.

"Pahiram ako ng calculator mo mamayang lunch ha," Ate Leslie uttered at tiningnan naman niya ako na nasa tabi lang ni Kisses. "Hi, Sabrina." She then smiled and I waved back.

Damn, do I look constipated right now? I want to ask Kisses but I hold myself kasi nasa teretoryo kami ng mga so-called-kampon.

Ewan ko nga rin doon kay Lorraine at naisipang gawan ng tribe name sina Alexis. Natawa tuloy ako nang maalala ko iyong mga pinagsasabi niya sa group chat namin kahapon.

"Dapat lagyan sila ng code name! Nang malito sila, ganern."

"Oo. Ihahatid ko lang dito?" Kisses asked at agad namang tumango si Ate Leslie.

"Sige. Hindi naman siguro kayo busy. Chillin'." Ate Leslie joked na agad ko namang itinawa.

But trust me. Napaka-hilaw ng tawa ko ngayon dahil nasa paligid lang ang barkada ni Alexis. Damn.

"Les,"

Agad kaming nakatingin sa babaeng tumawag kay Ate. The girl smiled a little ta's may pinag-usapan sila na hindi namin marinig.

Kisses and I took a steps backward para bigyan sila ng privacy.

Kakahiya naman sa inyo.

"Baka alam na nila." Kisses whispered while her eyes are on the crowded ground already. We even saw Christine and Kisses standing proudly on the ground while they are talking with some of our classmates.

I finally look at Kisses na ngayon ay nakatingin na sa may bandang classroom nila Alexis and her foot is swaying from her front to back. "Gaga. Paano, aber?" I eyed her but she's just looking behind me.

Nilingon ko naman kung ano ang tiningnan niya doon and from there, I saw Jake talking with another man, at sa pagkaka-alam ko, isa rin sa barkada nila.

"Sab, ang gwapo niya!" Kisses squeal but her face is stoic like a stone. It showed no emotion but her voice tells me the otherwise. I finally have the guts to look at Jake for a few seconds na ngayon ay naglalakad na pababa ng hagdan.

Ate Leslie showed us her 'wait' sign at pumasok sa classroom nila.

Kinabahan naman ako. Baka lalabas na rin si Alexis.

"Kisses, tara na!" I tugged her arms pero pinigilan naman niya ako.

"Sandali lang daw, Sab. Baka sasabay si Ate sa atin."

"Damn, baka dadating si Alexis!" I uttered under my breath pero ang mga mata ko ay nakatingin sa mga bulto ng tao na lumalabas sa classroom nila.

"Speaking of." Kisses blurted na mas lalo namang nagpapakaba sa akin. I bit my lip and was whispering 'keep calm' when my knees began to tremble.