He's The Subject I Can't Have [ON-GOING]

Chapter Twenty-nine (Poem: Day 17 - 18 of 41)

The next weekend is so stressing for me. I am busy doing our laundry when Vanessa surprisingly ask us about our Research Paper. I totally forgot it because of the foundation day and here I am, drying the clothes inside the machine but my mind is flying; thoughts came flooding like how and when will we start doing our topic.

Hindi ko pa naman forte ang gumawa ng chapters four and five. Jusko. Right after hanging our clothes sa gilid ng bahay namin, I turn on my mobile data again to check if ano ang final plan nila Vanessa and Arianne. I am quiet guilty pa nga dahil hindi ako nakasali sa usapan nila but they just laugh at me dahil medyo OA raw ako for overthinking things out.

I love my research buddies. Really. If someone haven't got the chance para magbigay ng ambag sa group ay maghahanap talaga ng paraan. Maybe some of our classmates are having a hard time dahil medyo hindi nakakatulong ang ibang kasama nila but not for us. We dependently give reasons to work our papers out.

So, I was back scrolling their messages and notice na they decided to have it this next Saturday na lang. They even planned to have over night at Vanessa's but I doubt if I could go. Medyo OA talaga ang parents ko.

Amp. The perks of having so strict parents. Char.

The next day, I am quiet occupied on what will I buy for Alexis' birthday. I mean, I should decide already para ma-budget ko na ang pera ko after three days.

While scrolling in Facebook, I notice a page named, Mr. DIY. I am quiet curious about it since uso naman ang Do It Yourself things these days. I keep scrolling until I found a snow globe. It's a thing I wanted to buy since then. I love those tiny stuffs falling. I discovered something like that back when I was still watching While You Were Sleeping and it makes me want to buy for my own.

I then pouted after reading the things I need to buy.

Glycerin. Where the f could I buy one?!

I tap the messenger icon and ask my friends. But they all gave me answers unrelated sa question ko so I message Jia Kier, my friend since seventh grade.

She told me to ask Trixie about it dahil they once made one back when they were required to make such things. I pouted and search for her name. I am a bit hesitant pa nga dahil madalang na lang kaming nakakapag-usap. I sent her the message and good thing she replied immediately. She just told me to check for it in the Pharmacy.

I purse my lips before sighing. Final na talaga 'to? I could just buy him watch or shirts or maybe a necklace. Tsaka, wala pa rin akong idea kung ano ang ilalagay ko na figure sa loob.

I tried searching for an ideas but it's all about Superman, animes and all the such. Hindi ko naman alam kung ano ang hilig niya. Baka ma-bash lang ako kapag si Sta. Claus ang ilagay ko sa loob. Charot.

Before entering my room, may napansin ako sa ilalim ng isa sa mga monoblock chairs sa sala namin. My forehead creases when I saw my little angel figurine from almost three years ago.

I grab it and check for it before knotting my brows. "Reyñier!" I called him. I walk back to the terrace and I saw him playing with his toys cars, whimpering such sounds like his toys. He look at me curiously on why am I raging mad again.

"Ina-ano kita?"

I bulge my eyes. "Bakit nasa labas iyong figurine ko?!" I shouted at him while raising the angel with a slight damage on its wing part already. "Itinago ko ito sa box ko ha!"

He grin, "found it eh. Lumabas ang paa kaya kinuha ko."

The next few minutes are full of shouts and laughter from my brother. He's kinda irritating the shit out of me! Ang sensitive ko pa naman when it is all about my things. I kept it for years already and makikita ko lang na
nasira because of him? Dude! Don't stop me because I will be declaring war between you and me!