He's The Subject I Can't Have [ON-GOING]

Chapter Twenty-eight (Poem: Day 16 of 41)

I gather few guts to turn around again to check Alexis and if hindi ba kami namamalikmata. Baka kasi nasobrahan na kami sa kaka-Alexis namin. It has been few weeks after we started this but it seems like our world revolves with him and him alone already. This act is a kind of impact, na mahirap nang kalimutan, ganon.

I never imagined growing from what I am today to the person I will be someday. Siguro, makakalimutan namin na ginawa namin 'to but just a tiny hunch. I mean, this is the first time na nabaliw ako sa lalaki 'no! Sure, I couldn't forget about this. Memories will stay, I am certain.

I finally turn around and saw him, still holding on the railings. I take a sip on my bottled water while still looking at him and ewan ko ba if he's really looking in our side but kinabahan talaga ako. I remove my gaze away and chose to face Lorraine, eyeing me thoroughly. I bit my lip and told her to go upstairs nalang for the practice.

We chose to use the stairs near our classroom since nandoon pa rin si Alexis and who knows his friends too!

Mahirap na at baka may alam na talaga sila. Or nag-fe-feeling lang kami?

Ewan.

The practice lasted for more than three hours before our PE adviser dismissed us for the job well done. Thankfully, we mastered the steps and some are also working on our props. Lorraine is one of them since she's a week late na for catch ups dahil nga, she went to Cavite because of her Lola.

I change my upper with few of my classmates inside the CR and wore my comfy ABM shirt. Speaking of which, may kailangan pala kaming babayaran na another shirt for the sportsfest where the grade eleven are just the participants.

Another pera again. I hope my father won't be having tantrums again kapag manghihingi na ako. Hindi ko pa naman magets iyong taong 'yon.

We separated ways and I am alone again, waiting for a public utility jeep. I check for my wrist watch and notice that it's almost six already. I waited for more than thirty-minutes, if I weren't wrong, bago ako nakasakay sa almost puno na rin na jeep. I am actually having a hard time inside dahil half lang ng pwet ko ang naka-upo but I don't have a choice. If I will be too picky, baka maabutan pa ako ng umaga kakahintay ng unloaded jeeps. Rush hour is rush hour. I have to deal with it.

I arrived at home and saw Papa and Reyñier just watching their favorite episode from NAT Geo Wild in cignal. They seems like enjoying the show so I just went inside my room and change for a PJ before going in the kitchen to prepare our dinner.

Napasigaw ako bigla nang maramdamang mainit pala ang lutuan. I almost curse and curl my body to lessen the heat crawling inside me.

Letche! Tapos na pala sila magsaing, hindi man lang nagsabi!

I walk annoyingly outside the kitchen and notice my brother grinning at me. I roll my eyes at him and walk straight to our father who's sitting comfortably on the mono block chair. Wala kasi kaming couch. Hindi 'yan uso dito. Naku!

"Anong uulamin natin?" I asked, looking at the hiding tiger behid a bush. He's kinda snipping thoroughly while checking out the kangaroo from the distance.

I felt my father move and stretch a little to grab his wallet. He told me to buy worth seventy pesos ihaw-ihaw so I gladly grab the money, resonating my own on what to buy.

I am walking while having my earphones on and heard some chitchats from anybody along the street but I remain unfazed. There are even few kanto boys cat calling me but I turned deaf and just continue walking.

Dapat pala isinama ko nalang si Reyñier eh! And hello? Why are these men so thick-faced? I mean, where did they found the guts to call women they found walking on the street?! Lakas maka-pagsabi ng: "Hi, Crush, pa-add ako joemarzkie..." Bla bla bla!