He's The Subject I Can't Have [ON-GOING]

Chapter Twenty-six (Poem: Day 14 of 41)

The practice went going but I secretly run patungo sa building ng mga grade ten para magpahinga. Halos magda-dalawang oras na kaming nakababad sa ilalim ng araw ta's 'di man lang sila nagpatawag ng water break. Paano ba naman, 'yung ibang section kasi mga pahamak eh. Not to blame them all but mostly is from TVL. Ito talagang mga schoolmates ko nakakataas ng dugo.

May isa pa ngang babae kanina na nakipag-alitan pa sa akin na kesyo, doon daw ang position niya, where in fact, sa likod ko lang siya. Sarap supalpalin ang mukhang parang coloring book.

Alam niyo 'yun? Effort na effort kaming matakpan ang buong katawan namin ta's siya halos pormado ang kilay pero hindi naman pantay.

Saan ba punta mo teh?

Sumalampak ako sa hagdanan ng building before I lean on the wall. I breath in and out to compose myself and try to bring my breathing back to normal.

Nakaka-stress ang mga tao doon. Legit.

There are few junior high school students na napapatingin sa akin but I didn't give them any of my attention. I am busy helping myself and caring about them is not my responsibility.

Bahala kayo diyan.

"Oh, Sabrina."

I immediately look behind me after hearing that voice. Napangisi naman ako nang nakita ang arviser namin noong grade ten na super close na namin. She asked me on what happened to me but I just jokingly shove her away, telling her to go to her classes na.

After a few minutes of calming myself, dahan-dahan akong tumayo upang tingnan kung ano na ang nangyari sa ibaba. They are performing with counting and I even notice some of those ugly bitches from earlier, not performing again.

I sigh. Mga walang kwenta.

I roam my eyes around and my gaze immediately fixated at those men, watching my batchmates while performing the dance steps.

Alexis and the kampons.

Napakunot ang noo ko nang parang may hinahanap sila at kung minsan ay may tinuturo pa sa ibaba. I saw how Lee lean his left arm on the railing then use his right hand to point at someone in the center part using his right arm.

"Sino kaya?" I whispered while checking the crowd.

I follow the direction where he is pointing and arch a brow, realizing, sa grupo ng HUMSS iyon.

I am about to take another step on my right side when I heard the voice of the most terror teacher of grade ten.

"I told you to read the story for the nth time, then why can't you answer my question? Ano ba ang ginawa ninyo kahapon? Irresponsible students!"

Hala.

Dali-dali akong umatras and nagtago sa gilid. Grabe talaga 'yong guro na 'yon. I remember na once na rin akong nasampulan nun. Kisses and I were fangirling over our favorite KPOP group nang bigla siyang magpakita mula sa likuran naming dalawa. We were squealing secretly and for no apparent reason, she smiled on us two and said, "hoy, girls, listen. Open your eyes and be awake. Hindi magiging sa inyo ang mga iyan."

Nakakataas ng sungay kapag maaalala ko iyon. Punyemas.

With nothing to do, I left the building and went on the cafeteria to buy foods. Mag-isa lang akong kumain and I made sure na hindi na ako gugutumin while practicing. Sasakit kasi ang tiyan ko kapag nagugutom and dobleng hassle na kapag ganon.

Nang masiguradong busog na ako at feel kong hindi na muli ako mahihilo, napagpasyahan kong bumalik na sa ground at did try my best to cope up with the steps.