Secret

Chapter 17

~JIMIN POV~

Today was the first day after we arrived at my fathers beach house. I had to beg him to let me come here with my friends but I have a motive to why I brought everyone here.

Since Sam and I had that conversation after I had that flashback of my past life I cant help but think of something that almost seems not possible but not impossible. It's just a hard thought to grasp really but it kind of just makes sense.

When everything clicked of how Sam told me how his sister feels physically when I have sex with someone, I couldn't help but think of something that led to me thinking about Sam when he was admitted into hospital from a heart attack well that is what I was told. It all can't be coincidence can it?

No it can't. Something is up and I've been determined to figure out what it is. There's been this feeling and sensations all over my body that all goes towards Sam and it's been confusing the hell out of me for a while now. I'm gonna find out what it is and I will find out before we go back to the school. That's why I brought everyone here, to figure out Sam outside the school setting.

The beach house is obviously right on the beach and that is where everyone has been all day just in that water swimming, playing games and even had a few game of volley ball on the beach too. I just finished a game and came to sit on the porch with Yoongi who fell asleep under an umbrella on a sun lounger.

I sat back sipping on my water in a glass with ice as I watched the game of six starting up a new game of volleyball. I was quite chilled and it was quite amusing to see Taehyung whine because Jungkook was placed on the opposite team than he was but he was on Sam's team with Hoseok. That meant that Jungkook, Jin and Namjoon were on the other team together.

Hoseok hit the ball into the air first, to fly over the net and Jungkook jumped up to hit the ball back but what happened next had everyone laughing.

The ball smacked Sam across the face but I wasn't laughing. Not because Sam was slapped across the face with a plastic ball but because I felt something smack across my face also. It was as if the ball itself also bounced off Sams face and flew in the air all the way to me and hit me also but that didn't happen.

It was painful and stingy and I only stared at Sam in shock as he too held onto the side of his face with one hand in shock, eye widen in size and mouth hung open just when Jungkook ran over to him to check if he was okay as the others laughed but also to ask if he were okay.

But this isn't the first time since we got here that I've felt any pain at the same time as Sam. Earlier on today Sam got a paper cut from a magazine he was reading. I felt that slice on my finger too but I had no paper in my hands when it happened. I was on my phone in the living room with Sam sitting directly across from me sitting next to Jin.

Then last night we played truth or dare with drinks involved of course. Sam got pretty wasted and tripped at one point and banged his head off the glass doors that lead to the patio that I'm currently sitting on. All this brings back memories of being back at school when we were in class and I purposely hurt myself and found that Sam was also hurt too but I ignored it. But not this time.

I always put it down to maybe just coincidence and ignored it but I can't anymore, especially now knowing that the bond with my soulmate is special and she would have to know that too somehow.

Then what I hated the most last night when we were all getting wasted Yoongi was dared to kiss Sam by Hoseok's request. I don't know why but no one minded as everyone of us are use to it because Taehyung and Jungkook are soulmates so they do this kind of stuff around us all the time. But it bothered me when Sam's name was mentioned. I grew jealous and became more angry than I thought I would for reasons I can't explain.

When I sat back quietly watching Yoongi quickly kiss Sam on the lips I swear down my lips were burning. I never felt anything like it. It was like someone put a lighter to my lips and let it burn there for two seconds before it faded away but left the linger tingle sensation of cooling down. I hated it but I came to a thought that it only happened when Yoongi kissed Sam.

I did happen to noticed how Sam kept watching me after that too but I paid no mind to it.

With my brain on overload about just well......everything to do with Sam. I watched them play the game again now that Sam seems to be okay and the stinging sensation subsided.

The ball went back and forth between everyone playing but all I could really watch was Sam again. I can never take my eyes off him. There's that pull towards him that I should be having towards his sister Y/n, but she's not here and only him. I use to put it down the fact it's because theyre siblings but I can't think like that anymore. There's more than just this, just that they're siblings. I know it and I'm certain that Sam knows a lot more than he lets on.

I've seen the way he looks at me. It doesn't go unnoticed at all. Just the look of longing, care, guilt and attraction is all clearly there but also another expression in his face shows all the time.

Love.

Maybe he is gay?

I barely know that guy but I find it so easy to be with him, to talk with him and just being around him gives me that warm feeling that I have been missing since I last spoke to Y/n in our connection we had before she cut it off.

I do know she can hear and feel everything I feel since I didn't cut mine off from her and since Sam has been here every now and then I would feel my soulmates emotions that always were when Sam was around doing something that would be similar to the situation we're in together.

I watch Sam jump in the air laughing and smiling ear to ear having fun which warms me up inside to know that he is happy.

All these feelings and situations that have happened since Sam has come into my life have stirred me up inside, buzzing inside my chest and head to tell me that my soulmate is here with me. To feel her presence when I can't see her, not that I would even know what she looked like anyway but I felt it in my soul that she's been around all this time so what if......what if she has?

What if she has been here this whole time?

Right under my nose and I never seen it.

There's only one thing I can do to try and find out my theory, if it proves to just all be in my head then so be it but what's the harm in trying?

"I still love you Y/n and you look so beautiful. More beautiful than I ever imagined."

I couldn't help but smirk to myself when I said those words in my own mind knowing full well she'll hear it but I said it while watching Sam's every move to see how he would respond. If he didn't then clearly my theory was wrong but if he did they Sam was his sister in disguise.

And Sam did react.

He came to a stand still and froze for a couple seconds before turning his head my way to look at me with widen eyes and mouth hung open in shock. The smirk on my face only grew when I seen his face and watched how he stumbled backwards when he seen my expression on my face.

I held up my glass of water to him with a slight nod, like a tell. To stare back into his eyes from a far and just know that this person in front of me is not who he says he is.

Finally after all this time my soulmate has been right in front of me this whole time.

Sam IS Y/n.