Feeling my stomach turn, I knew I was no longer going to finish my sandwich. Wrapping it back up in the papers it came in, I sat on the hood of my car as every one of my friends came in closer with their undivided attention.I was nervous because I've never been this open with anyone else besides my mother. A numb feeling invaded my hands and my heart accelerated to the lump of my throat. I've always wished to speak to more people I could relate too, but I realize whenever it's something personal, you'll always be apprehensive on that topic.
Now, I don't want to think about what I'm going to say, I just want to speak off the top of my head.
So not showing any emotion I smile and look into everybody's eyes.
"Everything goes back to elementary... the first time I saw how my life was going to change forever.
= Years Ago =
It was my first week in kindergarten, I learned about the term fat shame.
Let me remind you that I was a pretty big kid at this time. I wore a bigger size shoe than any other boy in that class, I was taller than most people, and I weighed more of course. Not only did I weigh more than anyone else, but I also had a stuttering problem that prohibited me from greeting others.
Throughout the rest of the year, it didn't take long before I realized people didn't like my appearance. It didn't really bother me at first, because I was always focused on being a happy young boy. As it continued on... it slowly got under my skin.
I got beat up for being overweight, teased because I had a speech problem, but that never changed the way I approached people. I was always the nice kid trying to make friends with others, and uplift those who went through the same problems I went through.
But that never stopped the bullying.
As I was becoming older, I came to a realization that it was only going to get worst. In my 3rd grade year, I had to fight every day at school when no teachers were there because that's when they prey on those who can't stand up for themselves. I was mocked, teased, downgraded... almost everything you could name in the book.
I'm so happy at that time I didn't struggle with depression. My mother made sure I was always happy when I came home... you're supposed to feel happy in you're home.
At school, I was always sad, and I would cry when anybody got the best of me. I wish I could tell you I knew how to fight back then, but real life isn't a fairy tale that you can manipulate. Whenever I went to the teachers about the bullying, it's like they never got into trouble for what they did.
That's when I began to feel like I was alone... like I was going through everything by myself. I already knew my mother couldn't be they're half of the time, so I kind of gave up on being truthful.
I slowly became a liar.
I thought, if maybe adding more to what that person did wrong, they would finally get what they deserved. But becoming a liar only took a toll on me in the worst way. When I got into fights and got beat up, of course, they would lie on me and say I started it, which I never did.
But the adults always believed them, which was fucking insane.
Because those people at that school knew me well enough, to be aware that I wasn't that kind of kid. I've been lied on by teachers, I've been pressured into saying things that I never committed, and at some point, I just wanted to end it all.
![](https://img.wattpad.com/cover/194544312-288-k405182.jpg)
YOU ARE READING
Telegraph Ave: Oakland High
Teen FictionBook 2 to Telegraph Ave (Read that First) There's different theories about high school. Some say in high school you'll have the best time of your life, and some say it's complete hell, yet very stressful. Both of those do seem to be true, but it doe...