Once we both did our handshake we broke apart still smiling at one another, Derek's smile is one of a kind almost too precious to be seen.
Soon after it dawned on me his name, it's too good to be true. A guy living in Seattle who's name is Derek who's last name might possibly be Shepherd and can't forget that he might be some big shot Neurosurgeon doctor.
"I'm sorry I'm not trying to sound or be rude but is your name really Derek?"
Derek just laughs at my question as he runs his hand through his hair "Yes, my name is Derek why do you ask?"
Gosh I feel so stupid, did I really ask this guy if his name is real?.
Perra estúpida.
"It's nothing really, just me asking a stupid question that's all." Derek's looking at me waiting for more of explanation but I don't want to voice my thoughts, I start to move my hair to the other side of my face twirling the bottom of my hair.
"Okay Derek, listen this probably going to sound really strange or even pathetic really." I took a deep breath and looked straight at him
"There's this show called Grey's Anatomy and basically I'm in love with a fictional character named Derek Shepherd who's by the way a Neurosurgeon Doctor who happens to live in Seattle."
Derek just sat there amused by my explanation to him I couldn't help but feel embarrassed by his facial expression.
"Lemon are you trying to say you're in love with me already?"
Instead of laughing I started to choke on air when he said that. "Woah, woah I'm not an actual Doctor Lemon try not to die on me here. I wouldn't know how to save you just breath."
Derek starts to pat my back trying to help me soon after my coughing settles down. "Lemon my last name isn't Shepherd, I'm not some big shot brain surgeon. The only thing going for me is the Seattle part, If you must know my full name it's Derek Robert King and what I do for work is.. is."
Before Derek could even finish his sentence I cut him off, I felt horrible trying to compare him to a character who doesn't exist.
"No Derek, you don't have to explain or tell me anything we just met and I was being rude comparing you to a fictional character. I'm deeply truly sorry."
Derek put his finger under my chin facing him and his other hand put a piece of strand behind my ear that moved in front of my face.
"There's no need to be sorry I asked you why and gave you a look to explain. I'm not offended I can promise you that."
Derek's touch alone makes me feel so many things I can't explain but one thing for sure is I don't ever want him to stop his little gestures towards me.
"Promises are meant to be broken you know? So why don't we do a pinky promise instead, those mean more than just saying promise."
I put my pinky finger out and Derek grabs my hand and starts to interlock his pinky finger with mine, he lifts my hand up to his mouth and places a soft kiss on my pinky finger.
I couldn't help but gasp and I know he heard me because his little smile he had turned into a smirk.
Derek comes close to my ear and whispers.
"I pinky promise you."
I snapped out of whatever dazed he put me on and remembered that this man is married, he may not have the ring on today but I promised myself I wouldn't go back to the old Lemon. I quickly got up from the bench and started to gather my belongings, Derek got up as well completely confused.
"Lemon did I do something wrong? Did I over step? Please just tell me and not leave me clueless on not knowing what I did."
My eyes stared into his but my eyes had a mind of its own and went back to his hand that had that shiny silver ring.
"I just remember I had something to do, have a good rest of your evening Derek I'll see you around maybe."
I couldn't bare to stay in the same atmosphere as him, I quickly started to walk away from him and I could hear him calling my name but I couldn't turn around and look at him because the moment I do the old Lemon is going to take over and invite him back to my place for a quick fuck.
I couldn't hear Derek screaming my name anymore, I stopped in the middle of the side walk holding my chest and taking deep breaths.
Derek is gorgeous, unbelievably handsome. I know men like him who use that to their advantage to have one night stands with a woman like me, they have no respect for their wives or the ring they are wearing.
After taking my deep breath's I start walking back to my house, one of my bags falls on my wrist and someone helps me pick up the items that fell out and once I looked up it was him.
My eyes quickly went back to the ground hoping it wasn't him but I knew it was there's no way of mistaking Derek anywhere, Derek grabs the bag off the ground and hands me it.
I was about to take it out of his hands but he pulled it back and put it behind his back.
"Lemon please look at me."
Lemon, just look at him for a few seconds and he'll hand you the bag just do it.
Couples seconds later my eyes met his eyes, biggest mistake I've ever made. Derek's eyes had so much worry and confusion in them it was hard to understand what he was feeling.
"Lemon what's wrong, what did I do? Please stop running away."
I grabbed his arm and I pulled him to the side so people can walk by in peace not having us block there path. "I don't want to start a argument, we just got done closing the one argument we just had an hour ago. Just let it go Derek."
"I'm going to keep following you Lemon till you tell me what happened with us, we were both fine till I kissed your hand. It's not like I have crush on you or find you attractive Lemon it was just a friendly kiss on the hand that's it."
I'm not going to lie my heart completely broke at his statement, but I'm not going to show it. Once again I'm a perra estúpida for thinking he might find me remotely attractive.
"Fine, I'll tell you. Derek what are you doing with your life? Where's your ring? You're a married man for crying out loud and you're flirting with me or making it seem like you are. Please have enough respect not only for yourself but the wife you made vows with, Please just stop."
Before he could even reply I walked up to him and grab the bag from behind him before I walked away I looked at him one last time soaking in every detail about him and walked away from him.
