His Kitten

Chapter 32

I walk back to the party and look around. All of the older people are gone. I'd say people from ages 18-25 are here. They shut off the normal music and are now playing music that would be playing in a club. Right round by Flo Rida is playing and a lot of chics are dancing to it. I am glad Chloe is asleep cause otherwise I'd have fun trying to stop her from dancing dirty as well.

I spot the guys. Justin has 2 chics with him. He has his arms around them. Then there's a chic talking to Tristan. I walk over to them. I stop when I hear the chic talk. "Did it hurt?" She asks him "did what hurt." He says and she smiles. "When you fell from Heaven." He smirks "I actually crawled up from hell." He says and she stands there shocked.

He spots me and smiles. I walk over to him. He wraps his arm around me. "What took so long you were in there for like 20 minutes." He says and I smile. "Chloe wanted me to lay with her until she fell asleep." He nods "well I'm glad your back." I smile and go on my tippy toes to kiss him. Yes I need to go on my tippy toes I'm in 2 inch heels and he's still a foot taller then me.

Anyways I go in my tippy toes to kiss him. He leans down and kisses me. I pull make and stand normal. I look around "hey where's Liam." "Sleeping he's in my kids room." Joey says and I jump. I quickly turn around. "Sorry didn't mean to scare you." "It's fine."

The chic that was talking to Tristan is giving me the death stare. "You're really gonna choose this ugly whore over me." She says to him obviously pissed off and I stand there shocked. I'm not a whore and I'm not ugly.

Well I mean I do have a kinda big nose. My lips are smaller then some peoples. I have those stupid big brown eyes. And my dumb wavy hair. But I'm not ugly. I know Tristan is saying something, but I'm not listening.

This is so stupid. You know what it's all my Brother's fault I get insecure easily. I mean I am a little fat. I've gained some weight since Tristan and I got together. Maybe I should go on a diet.

I stand there thinking about my stupid insecurities as I fiddle with my hands. I'm broken out of my thoughts by someone pushing me. I look back and it was Justin. "Are you ok?" He asks and I nod. "I'm fine why wouldn't I be."

"Cause she called you a ugly whore and then said she can't wait for boss man to break up with you and break your heart cause he'll come to that chic asking to forget about you." Wait she said that.

It must of been while I was thinking. "Ohhh I wasn't even paying attention to what she said." He looks at me. "Are you sure your ok?" I nod he let's go of one of the chics and gently touches my cheek. "Really cause you're crying." I look at the chic who is still saying shit about me.

I nod "I'm fine." I wipe my cheeks and walk over to the bar. I get a drink and start to drink it. My stupid brother pops into my head and I start having flashbacks of all the things he's done to me. All the things he's said to me. This is all my brothers fault he ruined me. I sit there starring at the almost empty glass of alcohol as I keep getting the flashbacks.

Next think I know I'm crying and having a panic attack. I get out my phone and call Alex. Surprisingly she answers the phone. "Bell why are you calling so late in the night." "D..Do you ever g..get flashbacks of him o...of what he's d..done." I sob "Yeah I do but it's normally triggered by something. Did someone say something to you."

"I'm at a party Tr..Tristan's buddy is throwing a..a chic was flirting with T..Tristan and she got mad th..that he turned her down si..since he's with me sh..she called me a u..ugly whore. I... I started thinking about h..how ugly and fat I a..am." I take a few deep breaths.

"Then I got a drink a..and sat at the bar th..that's when I started g..getting flashbacks of him and n..now I can't c..calm down no matter how h..hard I try." I say crying a little harder. "Ok Bell I need you to breath. Don't listen to the chic or anyone. You're beautiful and perfect. Most chics would die to have a body like yours."

I shake my head. "N..No they wouldn't I...I'm fat and ugly and useless j...just like Cole always s..said to me." "No Bella you're beautiful and perfect." I shake my head. "N..No I'm not I'm a st..stupid girl that's broken and h..has a crap load of is..issues."

"Isabella stop it you're putting yourself down all because of stupid flashbacks. This is what he wants. He wants to see you broken and sad. Don't let him win ok." "He always wins ok. If I e..ever say he doesn't it's a lie. H...He's dead yet h..he's still hurting m..me. I'm a mess all because of him because of th..the shit he did to me. I'm not beautiful I'm a stupid girl who h..has scars all over h..her body." I sob and cry getting Chloe's dress covered in mascara and tears.

"Bella stop it you're beautiful and your scars. They're battle scars." I shake my head "they're reminders of how stupid I was and a reminder of how broken I am. I can't keep acting like I'm ok."

"Bella you're just emotional." "No I'm n..not I can't keep pretending Alex I...I can't keep pretending like I'm ok. I can't." I cry even harder and I know people are looking at me. "Bella just take deep breaths please." She begs and I try to take deep breaths,but I can't.

"I can't Alex I can't ok I don't wanna calm down and hide my emotions. I just want it to stop. I want to stop thinking about Cole and all the shit he's done, but the flashbacks they just keep replaying in my mind. He should've just killed me like he was gonna. The police should've never came and taken him. The ambulance shouldn't have came, They should've just let my bleed to death."

"Isabella! Don't think like that." Alex says and I shrug. Arms wrap around me. I look down at the arms and see Tristan's tattoos. "I...I have to go Alex ok." "No Bella don't hang up the phone. Please Isabella if you hurt yourself I..." I end the call and put the phone next to my glass of whatever the hell i'm drinking.

"Kitten what's wrong?" He asks and I spin the chair so it's facing him. "They won't stop. The flashbacks they won't stop they just keep replaying." I sob and burring my face in his chest. "What flashbacks?" He asks and I sob even more. "Of Cole they w..won't stop." He rubs my back.

"I'm sorry kitten." I shrug and he kisses the top of my head. "Do you wanna go somewhere more private?" He asks and I nod. He lifts me up carrying me bridal style. "Justin" Tristan says and waves him over. "Yes boss." "I'll be back while I'm gone your I charge of the guys and Mia."

"Wh..Where is Mia I h..haven't seen her since Ch..Chloe hit my head making m..my nose bleed." Tristan rolls his eyes "she's probably fucking some dude. Anyways yeah Justin you're in charge of them until I get back." "Yes Boss." He says before walking away.

Tristan carries me to a room and sets me down on the bed. He sits down and I crawl over to him. I move so I'm sitting on his lap with my head resting on his chest. "Do you wanna talk about the flashbacks?" He asks and I shake my head. "Ok I won't pressure you." He says and I nod.

I move up a little so I can hear his heartbeat. I sit there listening to his heartbeat and trying to calm down. Tristan wraps his arms around me pulling me closer to him. I smile and wrap my arms around him. He makes me feel so safe. Being held by him. It makes me feel safe and protected. I take deep breaths and calm down.

I close my eyes. "Kitten if you're tired why don't we lay down." I shake my head. "If we do you're gonna leave me. And I don't wanna be alone." He smiles "well if you fall asleep how are you supposed to meet Joey's wife and make friends."

I shake my head "I don't need more friends I have you, Chloe and the guys." He laughs and shakes his head. "Fine Kitten we can sleep and I won't leave you." "Pinky promise." I say as I put my pinky in the air. He smiles and links his pinky finger with mine. "I promise I won't leave you Kitten." I smile and move off him.

I lay next to him. He wraps his arm around me and pulls me closer to him. "Goodnight Kitten." Tristan whispers in my ear before kissing my neck. "Good night baby." I say before closing my eyes and falling asleep almost instantly.