In Search For Happiness

Chapter 1

(In 21century)
Ariel is a timid, sensitive, straightforward, and shy girl. She is the eldest daughter of her parents and the eldest of her siblings. She tried to do whatever, to make her family happy and tried to support her family mentally if she couldn't help financially.
She couldn't and didn't live her life. She always lies to herself and her feelings and needs to make her family comfortable.

Every time she gets into fights with her family She always tells herself:
" It's ok it's just temporary feelings and situation, everything will be alright if I just don't think about it and forget it. They did whatever they did just now, and said whatever they just said to me now, is to make me a better person. I have to calm myself for now. They are my parents after all."
Though she is fast to forget whatever happens the next day, however, her heart still remembers the pain...
Though she always thought and felt so miserable, she never told anyone seriously.
If her parents knew, they might feel injustice. However, that's how she felt and that's how her life was.
Ariel wanted to fix those feelings by having a conversation with her parents. An honest conversation. However, she knew that things won't get any better and it will only get worse than before.
She can't change her parents, so she tried to change herself. However, she couldn't help but see the difference between her and her parent's point of view, personality and preference. Whatever, she wanted to express to her parents, they end up just discourage her, depress her or just want her to be like them. She always wanted to tell them and wanted them to know that, though we are family, though you raised me, we are first of all humans. We are different from each other. We have different personalities, different feelings and points of view, different preferences, different thoughts, and different ways to handle things. We have to respect, listen, understand, and accept our differences.
What works for you doesn't mean that it will for sure work for me.
Stop saying that it's my duty as a daughter and as a child to do whatever you want me to do to repay you for whatever you have suffered when I was a baby or younger.
You should not compare me to you for whatever you have ever suffered when you were younger.
"Please, stop telling me that you did this and that when you were younger, why you can't do it too? , why you are not taking me as an example and live like me?" Ariel wanted to shout those words, but the words can't get out of her throat.
She was depressed most of the time. And her thoughts were always numb and empty.
However, no matter how depressed she felt, she was so close to her 3rd younger brother. She loved him dearly and adored him.
Ariel was always afraid that her feelings would someday drive her to insanity and just burst her anger at her brother. However, she somehow sees her younger self in her brother, which makes her heartbreak and the reason why she adores him so dearly.
One day, she decided to run away from home. She worked and saved enough money for this day. She wanted to take her 3rd brother, however, she was afraid that he would regret coming with her someday and wish to go back. After all, he was so young.
Therefore, she went out with her face full of tears and anxiety. Ariel couldn't help but miss her 3rd brother. And when she tried to cross the roads, she got hit by a car.