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Harkon x reader

This has been sitting in my drafts for over a month because I started it, got a request for Neloth and Haskill (WHICH I AM STILL DOING BY THE WAY PLEASE DONT GIVE UP ON ME YET THEYRE JUST DIFFICULT)
Yeah I know he's a little out of character but i tried okay-

This had been going on for weeks. He had been so busy since serana came back with that damned scroll. Before this he would at least show that he loved me. Holding me while we slept or kissing my forehead when no one could see us. That sweet affection had become something I was used to. Then it was so quickly reduced to absolutely nothing. He said he needed to prepare, and that obsession I was so heavily warned about came back.
I couldn't sleep. I felt like I was nothing to him now. We hadn't talked at all in days, and I felt awful. I rolled over and tried to snuggle into his chest, only to be pushed away. What did I do? Did I offend him? Was he just stressed? Tears threatened my eyes, so I got up and left. I went outside to the tower on the shore and called Odahviing.I just talked and laid against the dragon as I watched the stars in the sky, eventually falling asleep there. Odahviing a breathing may have been loud, but it was soothing.
Very soothing actually. I trusted him with my life, and I trusted him to keep me safe. That's why it scared me so bad to wake up to him growling. I wasn't armed, and was just in a simple nightdress. I opened my eyes quickly as my muscles immediately tensed.
"Why are you up here?" Harkon sounded unamused, almost upset. It made me pull my legs and arms closer to my body, afraid of an outburst of some kind, and not from him.
"I couldn't sleep." I muttered, inching myself closer to the dragon next to me.
"Do you have any idea how worried I was?" He growled, and I reacted much differently than I usually would have to that tone. Normally I would glare until he apologized, but that night I just curled up, trying to ignore it. I was already in distress, I didn't want to deal with this... but somehow those words were reassuring. At least he worried. At least her cared a little.
"I'm sorry I just-" I stopped myself from speaking, hearing Odahviing growl again. The first time was a warning, but now he was threatening. The growl was much lower, making Harkon step back a few steps. He sighed, and his entire expression changed. He looked almost sad. I kept eye contact, placing my hand on Odahviings side as I came to my feet. I approached him, but still kept my distance.
"Whats going on?" He asked me, taking a step forward and cupping my cheeks in his hands. "Who hurt you?" He started to look a little more concerned now, his golden eyes mesmerizing me for a moment. It had been a while since I had been able to be this close to him, and it was just us.
"No one." I lied, I should have told him then and there. Not that it was much help to lie anyway. "I'm just upset."
"What is upsetting you then?" I bit my tongue to try and stop myself from speaking. "(Yn), please. I'm worried."
"You're suddenly worried?" My tone started to become more hostile, but not venomous like it was in my head. I was near in tears. Was I not good enough? Was I just a distraction until he could finally continue with his prophecy? "After almost a week of not speaking to me you're suddenly worried?" He looked confused for a moment, before taking my face in his hands again and wiping tears from my chest.
"I didn't realize I hadn't been speaking to you..." maybe that should have made me feel worse, but for some reason it made me feel a bit better.
"You physically pushed me away tonight. I just want-" something broke, and I started sobbing. I nearly fell into his arms. He was stunned, but held onto me tightly. Odahviing gently  nudged my arm and I turned my head slightly.
"Do you want to leave?" He asked in dovahzul. I paused for a moment, before I shook my head, pressing my face into harkons chest.
"What do you want? I hate seeing you like this." Harkon said, running his fingertips up and down my back.
"I just want you. I don't want to feel alone all the time...." I picked me up, kissing my forehead.
"What if... let's spend tomorrow together. Just us." I smiled at him.
"That sounds wonderful." He started walking to the exit, but I said I wanted to say goodbye to Odahviing quickly and he put me down.
"I don't want to move." I chuckled, laying on Harkons chest comfortably.  "You're my new pillow."
"Oh am I now?" I wrapped my arms around his stomach, looking up into this beautiful eyes I had grown to adore. "I love you."