Business to Pleasure (EDITING)

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November 19th, 2015

Mahlani

These last few weeks have been very busy. I've been traveling around with Aubrey for shows, meet and greets, and charity events. Me and Aubrey made it officially official that we're together. Koi and Future were traveling with us as well which I am happy about. I noticed though, I haven't been feeling good at all and I missed my period, but I have irregular periods so that didn't bother me. My mood swings have been crazy- like I yelled at Aubrey for dropping a plastic bowl on the floor, I've been having a bunch of headaches, and I've had a little morning sickness. I know it can't be pregnancy because I took a plan b. Even though it's not 100% affective, besides all the miscarriages I've had, I don't even think I can have kids.

"You okay?" Aubrey asked coming to sit next to me on the jet. We were on our way back from a meet in greet in Texas and going back to Canada and I had a headache.

"Yeah I'll be fine. I just have a small headache." I told him laying my head back.

"You sure? You want me to go grab some medicine out the bag for you?" He asked with a worried look on his face and I just smiled.

"No, I promise I'll be okay Aubrey." I told him. He hated to see me in pain, which I thought was the cutest thing.

"Okay..whatever you say." He said. My phone dinged and I looked down seeing Koi texted me.

Bitch..are you pregnant or sum? I think you need to go get checked or take a pregnancy test. I kind of bought some when we were at the store and they're in my bag. 8:54pm

Nope, I know for a fact I'm not pregnant. But I'll take a test just to be sure, but I just know I'm not. I'll take them at your house. 8:55pm

I closed my phone and then closed my eyes to take a nap.

*4 hours later*

We had just gotten off the plane and I was going to help put away the luggage in the cars, but Aubrey forced me to get in the car and sit there since I still had a headache. It wasn't as bad as it was on the plane, but it was still bothering me. After 5 or so minutes went by, Aubrey got into the car and looked at me concerned.

"Why won't you just take medicine baby?"

"I don't want tooooo, you know I hate taking medicine." I told him starting to feel sick as soon as the car started moving. He sighed and shook his head.

"You know you be so complicated?" He asked kissing the side of my head.

"No I don't." I said laughing.

"I'm gonna drop you off at Koi's because me and Future have to hit the studio with PND but I shouldn't be gone for no more than 3 hours." Aubrey told me while I nodded my head.

"Okay that's fine, just be safe." I said.

"Always." He responded. After about 30 minutes, we pulled up to Koi's house. Aubrey came around and opened my door and as soon as I stood up I started to feel dizzy and I stumbled a bit.

"Woah..you good Lani?" Aubrey asked me grabbing me.

"Yeah I'm fine, just a little dizzy that's all." I told him holding my head.

"I think I should stay here, I'm about to cancel the session." Aubrey said.

"Aubrey no, I'll be okay. If anything happens you know I'll let you know or Koi will let you know. Go to your session I'm okay." I told him kissing his lips.

"Okay." He mumbled. We walked to the front door and I wasted no time sitting on the couch. "Alright we'll be back. Koi, please keep an eye on this one." Aubrey said poking my cheek making me laugh.

"You know I will." She said chuckling. Aubrey kissed me goodbye.

"You stay here and rest, okay?" Aubrey said.

"Yes father." I said playfully rolling my eyes. After Future said his goodbyes to Koi, they both left and Koi stared at me.

"Come on." She said helping me off the couch and walk to the bathroom. I leaned on the wall while she went to go get the pregnancy tests. She walked back in the bathroom and handed me the box. I was already used to doing this so I took both tests out and peed on the sticks. I put the top part back on the test and sat them on a paper towel and handled my business. Once I was done, I washed my hands and closed the toilet seat sitting on top of it while Koi sat on the tub. We talked about other stuff while we waited and I told her about what happened in New York with Ken.

"Should i tell Aubrey about it? I mean I don't think it's that crucial." I told her shrugging my shoulders.

"Girl just go ahead and tell him, because what if it goes out into the media. You know they be seeing every little thing." She told me.

"You're right. I'll tell him tonight." I told her. Time went by so quick, it had already been 15 minutes. I looked at the tests.

Pregnant
Pregnant

I rubbed my eyes to make sure I wasn't tripping. Koi looked at them and squealed.

"BITCH YOU'RE PREGNANT!!! I KNEW IT." She said yelling and hugging me. All I could do was cry. The only thing running through my head was "what if I have another miscarriage?" Koi pulled away from the hug. "Lani what's wrong?" She asked me wiping my tears.

"I'm not ready." I said half lying. I didn't want to tell her about my miscarriages. The only other person that knew about my miscarriages was of course, Ken. I had never been open with my family about it because I was embarrassed.

"Girl a baby is a blessing! Everything happens for a reason and you're going to be a great mom. There is nothing to worry about and you know I'll be there to help." She told me. That made me cry even harder and I pulled her into a hug.

"Thank you!" I told her.

"Always girl, I will always be here."

"You know what's crazy...I took a plan b. It didn't even work." I told her.

"Well too bad, cause I'm about to be a god mommy." She said touching my stomach. "I'm so excited! I hope it's a boy." She told me jumping up and down again.

"How am I gonna tell Aubrey? What if I'm ruining both our careers...The tour? All of that oh my gosh." I said running my hand down my face.

"Girl, everything is going to fall into place quit tripping! You can surprise him with like a little box with the tests in it and an outfit. Orrr you can just flat out tell him." She told me.

"I guess I'll do something special and cute. I already know you have stuff to make the box up and I'm not surprised if you have an outfit." I told her while she laughed.

"You right, I have an outfit I was supposed to give this girl at work, but I forgot I even had it and ended up buying other stuff and giving it to her. It's a unisex outfit too." She said making me nod my head. "I'll just make it, you need to lay down and relax, I'll bring you a cold towel for you head."

"Okay mother. Damn y'all just acting like my parents today." I said getting up to go lay down on the couch. Koi brought me a towel and I placed it on my head closing my eyes and just letting my thoughts run wild.

What if I lose my baby?...

TBC....