Daddy - An SVU fic

17.Dealing

Olivia cried in Fin's arms until she'd exhausted her tears and no more would fall. Every emotion she had was raw and at the surface as she clung to him. Happiness, relief, disbelief and anger plus confusion and so much more. Everything rushed out of her all at once until there was nothing left and there in the arms of her oldest friend she allowed her cries to finally quiet and in pained whispers that begged him again and again "don't leave, don't leave, don't leave..." She finally closed her eyes and let the sleep her tired mind and body so desperately craved take her under, but she was in a state much deeper than typical slumber.

Now, Fin, with Nick and Amanda sat at her bedside not having moved since they arrived and they couldn't find a thing to say between them, they just sat there in stunned silence as they watched her sleep. After three long months she was just a mere shell of herself. Nick was especially affected by watching her scream in Fin's arms without reserve. She couldn't talk, she just screamed in the most pitiful sobs he'd ever heard, sobs that broke his heart.

"What the hell had happened to her?" he wondered, they all did as they looked at her from where she lay, covered in horrible bruises. But that wasn't the most shocking. What pained them most was her gaunt appearance. She had lost weight, enough that her cheeks had begun to take on an almost hollow look. They had no idea that she was with child and that the morning sickness has been quite brutal, often lasting all day and not letting her keep anything down - that was when she could actually manage to want to eat. Being viciously raped and beaten almost daily often left her without an appetite and she couldn't be bothered with doing anything other than lying still and praying for death.

"I'm just glad she's able to sleep" Fin said in a hushed tone, never taking his eyes away from her "No tellin the shit her mind is tryin to deal with"

Nick sat staring at Olivia, pure fire raging inside him. He sniffed back the tears in his eyes and swallowed the ones lodged in his throat that threatened to choke him before deciding that it was all suddenly too much and he stood up and stormed out of the room without a word.

"Amaro" Fin called after him.

"I got it"Amanda said as she got up and went after Nick, catching up to him as he delivered a blow to the wall with his fist, knocking a hole through it. "Nick..."

"I'll kill this bastard!" Nick vowed "So help me God, I will kill this son of a bitch for doing this to her!"

"He dun need to be our focus right now"

"Look at her!" he cried, the pain that was splitting him apart unmistakable in his voice. "I was the one that pulled her out of that house after four days with Lewis and that sick son of a bitch put her through it, but this?" he gestured toward her room "What kind of hell...?" he asked superfluously, unable to contain the angry tears that streamed his face. Amanda stood there, her own tears trailing her delicate features. She was at a complete loss for words and her heart was breaking.

"She... she's strong" she said almost inaudibly, offering the only words that would come

"Nobody is that strong and she's been stronger than any one person should have to be. You saw her in there, she broke, Rollins! Liv never breaks...no matter what, she puts on a strong face and she keeps going but that woman in there...that sick fuck broke her! He broke her!"

Sam approached Nick and Amanda with trepidation. The detectives seemed so intense, which was understandable but he wasn't sure how, or if they'd receive him at all. Especially after seeing the condition their friend was in; they probably weren't in the mood to talk to anyone outside their circle and it was completely understandable.

"Detectives?" he called in a small voice from where he stood a few feet away, causing Nick and Amanda to quickly turn around in his direction.

"...Sam, right?"Amanda said with a sad smile