The One

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Why you laugh? I asked Chaz as I came to the restaurant today.

It's his 35th bday and I made him a sour cream pound cake.
We wasn't together technically but we was still married.
It's been 9 months since I did that stupid shit and he still didn't come back in the house but I still saw him everyday and the kids was with him a lot.

I didn't laugh at you, I just thought about something , he said as I looked at him.

I missed the morning kisses, I missed the hugs , I missed the good sex , I miss my husband. We seek help but it's like he couldn't get over the fact that I said what I said .
She asked him did he want a divorce and he said yes, I was crushed but I prayed he just let me make it up to him.

I knew he was horny and I couldn't get upset if he got some pussy else where because we was technically separated, shit he took it as far as getting a legal separation order from the courts . He wasn't playing with me at all.

Thank you he nonchalantly said taking the card from me.
Watching him read the card I knew it was very emotional for him but he was a good dude but I had to pour my heart out to him someway so I did it in the card.

Walking out of his office, I left him there just looking off in space. He didn't reply to the note or did he tell me how he felt about the letter.
I basically told him I was nothing without him and that I know I didn't deserve him .
I also added the divorce papers that he left for me to sign a few weeks ago.
I signed them , it killed me to know that I did something that stupid to fuck up my Perfect family but I did it so why hold him back?

Crying all the way home, my momma was still living with us. She hated the situation but I made it happen.
When I told her I was signing the paperwork she cried and told me I needed to pray , shit I felt praying wasn't doing nothing for me.
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Chaz POV
Placing the divorce paperwork that I told her to sign in a envelope, I really didn't know what I wanted .
I love the fuck out of Jessica but she said some shit that I felt was so bad.
Like I understand she's younger then me, I understand all that but I didn't force her to marry me, I didn't force her to have none of kids .

She acted like she was happy but she really wasn't, the same bitch she told she wasn't happy wanted to give me brain 🧠 but I passed her to my nigga.

Placing the envelope in my file cabinet I'll leave it there until I decided what I wanted to do.

Bitch what you doing tonight? Kevin asked me as I got into my truck.
Uh nothing, finna go home cook my kids and maybe this girl some steaks and eat my cake, I said as he looked at me crazy.

You miss her don't you fool? He asked as I just looked at him.
Duh bih of course but she did that, so it's on her to make it up to me, I said as he just shook his head.

Man give sis another try , I really think she was bullshitting, he said as I thought about it.

I shouldn't have to be going hard for something I didn't mess up, she should, I replied as I flicked him off.
Team Jesss he yells as I laughed.

Arriving home about a hour later, she was sitting outside with a glass of wine in her hand.

Why you out here so early drinking? I asked .
I have a lot on my mind she dryly said as I just looked at her.

Like what? I asked being very curious.
Like what I'm do when we divorce, what the hell ? Like I don't want to divorce you, I don't know why you can't forgive me, I know you say sorry don't mean shit to you but I'm so sorry, she cried as she look at me.

Watching her reaction I felt she really was sorry now and this is the first time I ever felt that way.

Not letting her see me feel bad for her I just walked into the house to see my kids.

3 hours later
She's lit, like she drunk to bottles of wine 🍷
The kids are upstairs with her moms and I'm sitting outside on the balcony of the guesthouse watching her cry and shit.
Removing her sundress she walks into the pool with the wine glass in her hand.
Crying still man I felt bad and if me feeling bad is weakness then I'm weak ass fuck.

Why you crying ? I asked her as I enter the pool area.
Looking at me she was lit .
I'm okay , she said as I took off my shirt and pants.

Getting in the pool, I looked at her the whole time .

Give me this, I said taking the glass out her hand.

Placing the glass on the side of the pool she mumbled something.
Why did you marry me? I asked her as she tries to get out the pool but my question stopped her.

Because I love you,she quickly replied.
What did you love about me? I asked .

Everything , your attitude, your smile, your heart is so pure and big. The way you looked at me and the way you made me feel, she replied as I looked to the sky. Like she just didn't understand how I felt, I only wanted to be great for someone and have someone be great for me, but I guess me being great was a bad thing.

Not saying nothing I jus looked at her .

I know I fucked up , I'm sorry . I know the divorce is coming but please don't take Dior from me, she cried .

I want is all I said as she cried .