The One

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I mean I don't care, I yelled at Jessica as she tell me I needed to tell Dior that her mammy killed herself.

Why the fuck would I tell her that? That bitch hurt my baby, fuck her lifeless ass and that fuck nigga who I hope is getting fucked by the biggest dick in prison.

We got the call last night that they found her body , but I really didn't care because I wanted her dead anyways .

Jessica felt I should tell Dior but I didn't want to, like she already Suffered a lot behind this bitch so why tell her?
Tamia wasn't dumb she knew she had to kill herself or I would have if I ever saw her again.

You stay you know God and you stay you understand God's work but how and you can't forgive, you can't no his word if you can't forgive she yelled as I just ignored her.

Yes all that shit is bad , yes she fucked up but she's dead now and I'm pretty sure she regret all the bullshit she did to Dior , but you need to be that peace and make peace with the dead , you are not finna have that bad energy around us , you're not gonna hold on to hatred and think we're gonna have a healthy life she yelled .

I knew I had to forgive , I just haven't and I ain't need her telling me nothing about God, he's the only friend I have had my whole life, the only person that got me through life , so I knew him very well and I spoke to him daily.

Hugging Dior, she was my baby, I loved her so much and I will always love her.
I know Tamia is a part of her and one day when she's  older I'll tell my daughter but right now I don't feel is a good time.
😠😠😠😠😠😠😠😠😠😠😠😠😠😠😠.

Two weeks later
Hey Papa, Dior cooed to her grandfather(Tamia dad)
I decided to let him come see her for the first time in years.
Wow you're so beautiful, he cooed as he hugged her. I can't believe you remember me, he said as she just looked at him.
Papa yes I remember you, I remember mommy, Nani and Gpa (his husband ) .

Aww thank you for remembering me , I miss you. He said as she looked at me.

She asked about Tamia out of the blue and I just told her she was not here anymore. She asked me did she die and I told her yes, she said she knew that because Tamia came to her in her dream, she came as normal mommy and hugged her and told her she missed her and she was sorry, the shit freaked me out badly .

I am not gonna lie, Tamia was someone I loved before Dior and a little after Dior , I just think she was not ready for what I was on and once she completely lost me she became bitter.
I don't think she hurt my baby on purpose, I think she allowed her nigga to because she had her stung the fuck out on that shit.
So in my mind I made a little peace with her but that's all .

Spending 4 hours with her papa I wasn't far behind them, he took her shopping and had lunch with her.

Thank you so much, I am happy that you allowed me to see my baby, thank you for always been a good dad to her, he said shaking my hand.
Yes I love her, I will do anything for her, I said as she played on my phone.

This is something that I want her to have, I always had a life insurance policy on everyone . Tamia's my only child , and I loved her dearly. I know she fucked up and I know she made a few enemies but she was still my baby.

I buried her and I felt she was sorry for her sins and she prayed to God to forgive her, she's fine now, she's somewhere that she only have to answer to one person when it's time and that's God.

I am remembering her for the Good, the person she was before she met the devil , before she became sour, I am remembering my baby for the sweet girl she was . May she Rest In Peace, he said as a tear actually dropped from my eye because she was someone who I was dearly fucked up about.

Here's 1.8 Million for Dior, I know you don't need it but it's hers. Daman(the little boy ) got half and this is her half. We buried her with some and the remaining is her kids.
That's the less I can do for them,you know ? He said giving me a check.
Wow I said as I looked him in the eyes.

The money wasn't needed and the only thing we will do with it is put it in her saving account but it meant a lot that they thought of her.