Tamia
The nigga had me so high and so fucking drugged up at all times I swear I ain't know what he was doing to my baby.
They say in the videos I was laughing and shit, I swear it was the drugs.I got released last night and I don't have no where to go, no money , no where to live ,so why be alive.
I know Chaz hate me, the day of the hearing he looked like he wanted to kill me. Shit I wanted him to kill me for all the bullshit I let happen.
I was label and beat up for the first 3 years of my sentence, the only reason I'm out now is because I agreed to turn state against Mike on another cases he had going on, where he touched the neighbors 9 year old daughter.
I really don't remember it clearly but I do remember waking up with her laying next to us nude, when I asked him why she was even in our house we beat me up and shot me up with his supply.Dior meant the world to me before I got with Mike. I remember moving to Missouri with him thinking he was the right one because he showed me nothing but good as long as we was in Florida.
A month of being in Missouri the nigga wanted to beat her and for a while I would stop him but then he'll drug me up and beat my baby.I called my dad over one day to come visit because I needed a way out.
When my dad got their I left thinking he would see the marks and call the police, which he did but the tables turn and both of us was arrested .
I admitted I was reckless and careless , I admit I let everything that happen to my baby happen because I let this nigga drug me and beat my ass.I remember the nigga telling me that Dior was gonna be his little hoe, we fought and this nigga knocked me of cold.
So I don't blame nobody for me not having my kids.
I know Dior is safe and well taking care of with Chaz and Jessica , I want never reach out to them just because I know I wasn't nothing but a fuck up in her life. But I do love my daughter and will always be sorry for what I let happen to her.
My son was with my momma, that's a whole another story.My momma or my fathers liked me.
I called them to tell them I was out they told me to never come around them.
That shit hurts but I get it, I get it all.Sitting on the side of the river bank, I had nothing to live for so why live? Shit I don't even deserve to live and on many nights in prison I begged the ladies to beat my ass, I begged them to kill me because one thing they didn't like in jail was ah motherfucking Bitch who harm a child, and that's what I was label as even though I never touched my child, I allowed all that bullshit to happen.
It's 23 degrees out here, I'm cold as fuck .
Standing to the edge of the water, I prayed my kids grow to become something, I prayed they both forgive me, shit I prayed Chaz forgive me.Jumping .........................
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FanfictionYoung Chaz had it hurt, dude daddy was abusive and his momma was on drugs really bad. his step mother hated him and so did her kids. Chaz best friend Kevin mother took him in when He was 17 but that didn't last long, so he waited until he got 18 and...