|Jungkook's POV|
As both me and Jimin sat in silence I wondered what could've happened to make his mood switch so quickly, but then again it wasn't my place to pry just like he didn't a while ago. When I peeked to look at his face I realised he fell asleep. I guess I managed to calm him down quite a bit, I wondered what might have upset him to this point but the truth was that I really didn't know enough about him to guess.. it's a weird feeling, when you feel somewhat close to someone but you know nothing about them.. Eventually I laid Jimin down on the bed and covered him as I myself got up and decided to end this sleepover a little early than planned, it's not that I wasn't enjoying myself, the problem was that it was almost too fun for me to handle. Seeing Jimin and his family happy like this made me ache for mine and I couldn't help but feel jealous which didn't feel right. I was afraid that eventually it'd show..
Leaving a small note behind I quietly left the house to make my way to my own. Stepping into my empty, dusty flat I took off my shoes and threw my bag and coat to the side as I shuffled to my kitchen to take some sleeping pills and juice to help it go down. Today felt like I'd need them again and I'd rather not test whether my guts are right or not. Heading down the small corridor I couldn't help but notice my parents room being slightly open, without looking inside the room I closed the door feeling chills run down my spine as I hurried back to my room and threw myself on the bed instantly closing my eyes. In all honesty, I felt like shit. There's no nice way of putting it into words so I just hoped to fall asleep as fast as I could, and thankfully it worked.
The morning was a mess, I woke up to someone banging on my front door which turned out to be my landlord who insisted on coming in, me- being half asleep- didn't have a choice but to let the man barge in through the door and in to the kitchen where he slammed down a single piece of paper waiting on me to read it. I quietly shuffled over and took a peek at the paper. "Do you know what this is?" Mr. Shin asked and I couldn't help but be unable to find myself in that large amount of information on that tiny paper.. "This is clearly too small paper for the amount of information on there- I mean I can't even read the words, that's how small the typing is-"
"God damnit kid," he cut me off clearly not in the mood for my jokes, even if it was to lighten the mood.. "You're behind your rent! Again! Which time is it again? 5th? 10th? This is unacceptable! Why do you think you're any different than other tenants?" the man's face turned red with rage as his patience with me was getting weaker by the day but I couldn't help my finance situation more than I already am. "Sir, you know my situation far too well, if you just give me another mon-"
" 'Another month', 'another month'- How many times are you going to use that gamble? I've had enough! I'm giving you a week, exactly a week! If I don't get my money by then, I'll have you evicted!" and just at how quickly he stormed in, he stormed out slamming the door loudly behind him. I sighed and sat down in defeat, I had no way of getting the money in a week unless I was to take out a loan which I cannot do since I already did that and am still paying it back. I can't ask Tae or Hobi for money because then they'll know something is up and I don't want that so.. the only choices I have left is to either drop out or somehow get the money.. whether it's legal or not is another story.. Hiding my face with my arms in despair I cuss to myself quietly seeing as how I am pinned to a wall in this situation, a few seconds pass before I hear a notification coming through on my phone, with not much enthusiasm I quickly check it only to see texts coming in from Jimin..
Jimin: Are you okay?
Jimin: Hope you're not
gonna be mad but...
Jimin: When your
landlord came in you
left the door open and
I just kinda let myself in
Jimin: And I kinda
heard the whole argument
Jimin is typing...
Being completely shocked by the texts I stood up instantaneously and only then I noticed a figure standing in the door frame.. "What the hell?!" Jimin flinched at my sudden burst of mixed emotions, "How.. How long have you been here?! Why are you here?!" I was suddenly put in a tough spot and anxiety started eating me up from the inside, how much did he hear?
"Well.. kinda for the whole thing.. and I'm here because you suddenly disappeared without a word and my aunt got kinda worried and since I was the one to invite you I had to go check things out.." He explained seemingly embarrassed, "I know it was rude of me to just walk in like this but I thought someone broke in or something so I just kinda‐"
"I beg don't tell anyone about what you just heard!" Suddenly I felt myself at the mercy of Jimin and I couldn't help but throw myself to the ground and beg. "Jungkook what the fuck?!" He questioned in shock, "get up!"
"Please... no one can know about this! No one..." I felt hopeless, the secret I tried so hard to keep to myself suddenly broke free and to a complete outsider as well.. how could I let this happen?
"Jungkook.. I knew about everything for a while now..." When hearing those words I looked up in question, "when I came here for the first time, one of the old ladies here came and told me everything, about your many part time jobs, your parents, your debt.." He explained but all I could feel was anger and disappointment of myself.
"Did you.. start being nice to me out of pity?"
"What?"
"So it was.. how stupid of me to think you actually liked me for who I am.."
"That's not it-"
"Of course it is! You have everything, money, time, freedom, family but I.. I have none of that.." I couldn't help but start breaking down, after all these years of silence I felt like the suffocating air was actually letting loose.
"Shut up already" Jimin said sharply. "Do you realise how pathetic you look right now? Is this who you want me to remember you for? A broken, hurt puppy that cannot do anything for themself rather than a strong, hardworking and friendly guy who looks out for others rather than himself?" For some reason his words pierced through me like rose thorns and I could no longer hold in my tears, "get a grip".
"I'm sorry.." I mumbled through tears and shortly afterwards I felt warmth surround me. Jimin hugged me to comfort me.. "it's been so hard.. how did I manage this for so long?.." I complained like never before, this hardened ice weighing me down suddenly started melting down, just a little but enough to let me feel relief.
"I don't know but, I'm glad you did, I'm glad you didn't give up, you showed strength but many people can't.." Jimins words were comforting, like a mothers lullaby they soothed my crying heart ever so slightly, "you did well.. you're doing well.. Good job.." He kept saying as a way to calm me down and eventually he pulled away making me look up at him after a while. "Well aren't you ugly looking.." I bursted out laughing at his bad attempt at a joke but in the end it did work, probably not as planned.
"When did you get so comfortingly nice?"
"I did right after you turned into a crying baby, your 'be nice' card ran out so you better watch out" Jimin threatened and I just shrugged. I think I needed this more than I expected, I'm glad Jimin showed up..
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-River♡
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