I WONDER

|hello again|

I was shaking so badly that my mission wasn't focusing.
"Why bloom just why?". He dragged me up, wrapping his jacket over my shoulders.
That voice I missed so much.
"Shawn!". I smiled hugging him with all my strength.
"Hello again". He rubbed my back.

"I'm sorry Shawn".
"It's okay it's just... You're so cold, why do I always have to save you...what are you a black cat?".
I heaved my shoulders.
"I'm sorry".
"You need to go home call your brother". He nodded at my pocket.
I reached for it then froze.

I can't do that...

"My brother is busy I can't make him worry now".
"Okay, you can stay at mine".

At his' house?!.

"What?!".
"You wanna freeze to death?".
"No, but I don't wanna bother you".
"You aren't bothering me I just don't want you to freeze to the dead and die".
"Uhm okay if you're fine with it sure".
"It's just twenty minutes away we can take the next bus to the center of Toronto".
"Okay, let's go to your house". I smiled nervously.

"Not this one we need the next one". Shawn pulled me back to his side letting the bus pass by.
"I'm sorry".
"You couldn't know which bus it was...".
"No that I got myself in trouble again I'm just so stupid".
"How did you even drown did you fell over?".
I stared at the clock at the bus stop.
"What time does the bus come?". I didn't look away from the clock.
"I see... you don't wanna talk about it that's fine".
"I will just not yet". I crossed my arms over my chest trying to keep myself warm.
"You're still so cold, come here". He pulled me in his arms my back against his rather warm chest his heartbeat thumping against my shoulders.
He rested his chin on my head squeezing me.
"Oh, there it is". He let go of me n't reaching out his hand.

I didn't want you to let go...

I took his hand as he leads me onto to bus.

I walked towards his house but he stopped me.
"Not that one... This one". He walked over to a stair leading down.
I followed him through the clammy halls he took another stair down to a door to what seems a basement.
"Shawn".
"Here is it". He nodded to the door.
As he opened it I saw a dark apartment a basement apartment to be exact.
"You live here?". I glanced around taking it all in it was dark with a minimum of furniture.
"Yes I do, you have to get used to it it's pretty cozy". He put his keys on the table.
"Why do you live here?". I turned towards him.