Am I really in love with my bully?

Chapter 29

Brianna's POV

I heard a knock at the door. It's kinda weird because I didn't order any room service or anything. Maybe it was Claudia and Finneas paying me a surprise visit. I got out of bed and went to the door. I opened it slowly and looked up from the ground.

"Billie?" She looked...terrible. But that's not the point who told her I was here. "Um hi." She said quietly. I just looked at her. How can Finneas and Claudia do this. I trusted them. "What are you doing here?" Billie looked hurt by that question. She just stayed silent

I sighed. This girl is famous she can't just be standing around like this. I pulled her into the room and closed the door. I sat on the floor by my bed. I wasn't sad, or upset. I was mad now. I wanted to hear her. "You can sit your stuff over there." I said.

She did as told then went back by the door. "You can sit on the bed." She walked slowly to the bed and sat down. I looked at her waiting for her to answer. "Are you gonna answer my question?" I said kinda annoyed. She started playing with her rings. "I-I um j- w-." I stopped her. "Collect your thoughts then talk...I'm gonna go get a room key for another room for you." I got up and walked out of the room.

Billie's POV

I didn't know what to say to bri. I couldn't get my words out. She seemed angry. So I did everything I was told to do to not make her more mad. I sat on the bed waiting for her to come back in. After a few minutes she came back in with blood on her hand. I opened my mouth to say something but closed it. She punched someone I can tell. I didn't wanna be next. She tossed me the room key and went to go clean her hand.

Brianna's POV

Some asshole decided it's ok to try and touch me. I can tell billie wanted to ask what happened but she didn't. Probably afraid she was next. I walked out the bathroom and sat in my exact spot I sat in before I left. Billie was just playing with her rings. "Listen Billie I literally just punched a guy, my hand hurts and honestly don't have the patience, so it's either talk or go to your room and I don't know talk to me tomorrow I guess." I got up and went to the door.

She just stayed sitting on the bed. I looked at her. "I'm sorry." She whispered. I can tell that was the only thing she could get out, without making me mad. Someone else knocked on my door which made me annoyed. "WHAT!?" I yelled as I opened the door. "Someone's annoyed." Claudia said. I rolled my eyes and scoffed "what is it that you need?" I Asked her.

"Um bri I always come visit you." "That was before the fact you told-." I stepped to the side and let her in to see Billie. "her where I was." Claudia looked shocked "Billie what the hell everyone has been calling you." "I'm sorry." She whispered again. "Bri I didn't tell her it must've been Finneas." She said. "Finneas didn't tell me." Billie whispered. "Then how the hell are you here billie the whole point of me coming here was to get a break from everyone including you." I sighed out of frustration.

She wiped the tear that was coming from her face. "Um I figured it out." She said quietly. "I'm gonna go." Claudia said slowly while walking out of the door. "Claudia you better n-." She cut me off by closing the door. I groaned in frustration. I punched the wall and Billie flinched a little.

"Billie we can talk tomorrow just please leave." She just sat there like she was stuck. I walked over to her and grabbed her hand and put her over my shoulder grabbed her bag and walked to her room. I don't have time for this. I opened it with her key and put her stuff down. I sat her in her bed and put her key on the table.

"When you collect your thoughts I'll see you tomorrow." I walked out of her room and she started to cry. I walked to my room and just laid down. It's to late for all of this. I'm tired and I just need some sleep. I cut the light off and let sleep take over me.

The next day

I woke up to someone knocking at my door. I got up and put some shorts on. I opened the door and it was Billie. I heard her say "damn." To herself. I acted like I didn't hear it though. I sighed and let her in. "Billie it's early in the morning what is it." She looked at me upset. Did she do something?

"I um I did something." She said barely above a whisper. "What did you do?" She rolled up her sleeve and I saw 5 fresh cuts on her arm. I ran to her and held her arm. "Jesus Billie why would you do this, when did you do this." "Because you won't let my family give me the shame that I deserve, you won't let me be hurt, so I did it to myself." She said barely above a whisper.

I ran my fingers through my hair and sighed. "Billie I'm not letting your family shame you because they're your family...that doesn't give you the right to cut yourself." I drug her to the bathroom to clean the dry blood off. "I'm sorry." She said lowly. "Billie don't you ever do this to yourself again, got it?" She nodded and wiped her face. Am I mad at Billie for what she did while she was on tour? Duh.

Do I still care for her? Yes. I'm not just gonna let her hurt herself because I won't let her family shame her. I finished cleaning Billie's arm "where is it?" I asked her. "Where is what?" She said confused. "The blade." I simply said. She pulled it out of her pocket and handed it to me. "Is this all of them?" She nodded.

Billie started to sit on the floor but I stopped her. She furrowed her eyebrows but stood. "On the bed." She walked to the bed slowly and sat down. "Billie why. Are. You here." She just looked at me. "B-because I want to explain." "Billie there is nothing to explain, you kissed another girl and I have to accept that and I can't do that if you keep calling and texting and showing up randomly." She sighed "no it's not like that I- you have to let me explain." I sat down on the floor. "Explain then."

She looked at me like she was scared "Billie I'm not gonna hurt you or anything I could never." She looked up a bit but not all the way. "Uh w-we were at this party and I was upset that you weren't there...this girl came and sat by me and started to flirt with me. I told her I had a girlfriend but she kissed me and I-I don't know why I kissed back." She tensed up again. I stood up and put my hair in a messy bun.

I sat by Billie and took her hand in mine intertwining our fingers. She looked confused. "Can you stop tensing up when I do something, I'm not gonna hit you or anything." I said calmly. She calmed down and took her hand away. "I-I can't hold your hand anymore." She said. I looked at her. "Why?" "B-because I don't deserve to." I sighed and took Billie's hand again.

"Bil we can still be friends..now go get dress I wanna show you something."
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A/n: hope you like this chapter. They're gonna be friends for a while but Billie won't stop trying until they're back together so. Sorry for mistakes. Stay safe love ya🙃.!

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