But I love you - James Potter x oc

12- fireworks

Hi
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Without further ado on with the story
-lily

Edited

Rosetta's POV:

It's been a long few days since the Halloween ball and to my surprise it turns out the teachers are letting off fireworks on the 5th November for the muggle celebration of bonfire night.

As a kid I enjoyed bonfire night, me, my parents, Lily and Petunia went to a theme park every year where fireworks were let off at midnight. We would go on rides and have churros, it was always a magical night, I actually hate the fact that I have to spend this night at school, but at least we're doing something this year, silver lining and all.

Today is a Saturday so I am staying in bed for a while, and Kayla had said yesterday that she would let me sleep this morning because I haven't been sleeping, replaying that same memory every night resulting in me waking in a cold sweat and not being able to get back to sleep.

Time skip

I finally decide to get out of bed after a failed attempt at trying to get more sleep, at 12, I quickly change into blue jeans and a plain black top before reluctantly making my way down to the common room where I find many Gryffindors but no Kayla. So I instead head towards the kitchens in which I had just found in the past few days, I come across the portrait and then tickle the pear resulting in the portrait flinging open.

"Miss Evans it is lovely seeing you here, can Hally make you anything"
"Hi Hally" I shake her hand "I would like a tuna sandwich and perhaps a small cheesecake" I ask
"Hally would love to make this for Miss Evans, please take a seat" she gestures to the small table in the kitchen
"Thanks Hally, and please call me Rose"
"No problem Miss Evans, errrrm Miss Rose"
"Just Rose is fine Hally" I call after her, she turns, nods and then goes to collect ingredients

She returns holding a plate of Tuna sandwiches,
"Thanks Hally"
"No problem Rose" she grins ,fiddling with her fingers, I smile at her and she trots away back to the cooking station starting on the cheesecake
I hear the portrait creak open
"Heyyyyy" oh no, I would know that voice anywhere "I'd like some cake"
"Manners James" Remus, ever the angel, requests
"Please and thank you" Potter gives in, I finally look up to see potter, Remus, Black and Peter in front of me with there backs to me, I try to quietly get out of my chair to retreat but the chair falls and all four turn quickly
"Rosie?" Potter questions
"Here is your cheesecake Rose" Hally interrupts
"Thanks Hally" I quietly but quickly respond, I pick up my chair and sit back down, quickly digging into the delicious cheesecake
"Hi Rose" I look up
"Hi Remus, how are you?" I ask politely
"I'm good, how are you?"
"Been better" I respond truthfully
"I'm sorry"
"No, it's fine" I stutter

"Why won't she have a conversation with me?" I hear Potter ask Sirius, I quickly spot the look Sirius gives him and chuckle quietly.

Finishing up my dessert I rise from the chair and walk over with the pots and start to wash them
"You know the elves will do that for you right?" Potter asks
"You can't make them do everything, that's not fair!" I exclaim surprising myself by answering his question in the first place
"Rose doesn't have to do that" I hear Hally behind me
"It's no problem" I dismiss

Once I finish I wipe my hands on a towel and walk towards the portrait to exit the kitchen
"Bye Rose"
"Bye Hally"
"See ya Rose"
"See you later Remus"
I decide to visit the courtyard, finding an out of breath Kayla
"Where have you been?"
"The library?" She answers as if it's a question
"Do you really expect me to believe that?"
"I was busy" she simplifies
"Who's the guy?" I interpret
"There's no-" she backtracks "fine, but I'm not ready to tell just yet"
"That's okay, just tell me when your ready" i advise, Kayla nods.

We spend a while chatting, me trying to pull out some details of the guy she's spending time with but I eventually give up.
"Hey what are you wearing tonight?"
"This" I gesture to what I'm wearing
"Really, that for bonfire night?"
"Hey you got the name of the night right" I congratulate sarcastically
"Hey, it's not my fault I don't understand muggle traditions, I did grow up in the wizarding world" I laugh
"Yeah, yeah"
"Anyway your not wearing that"
"I'm going that's an accomplishment in itself, so I'm wearing this and that's the end of that" I finalise
"Fine" she concedes "anyway let's go to the dorm so I can change, then we can get dinner, chill out in the common room and then we go outside and watch the fireworks"
"Sounds like a plan"
"I know right" she exclaims happily and then we head to our dorm.

I watch Kayla dig through her wardrobe
"No, no, no" she repeats after pulling items of clothing out and chucking them on her bed, I roll my eyes and decide to grab my book.

"Right what do you think?" I look up to see Kayla in a dark blue casual knee length dress.
"You look great"
"Awww I know" I roll my eyes and groan
"Right let's go to dinner" she grabs my arm and pulls me down to the common room out through the portrait and then towards the great hall
"You can let go"
"Nah" Kayla responds
"Oh"

We arrive at the great hall and sit at the Gryffindor table, Kayla starts to shovel food into her mouth to which I frown grossed out. I look away from her and put food on my plate and start eating slowly.
"Hey did you know two days ago mr grumpy pants and your sister fell out" I look up
"Who?"
"Snape" she answers
"Wait what happened?" I question
"Apparently they had an argument"
"Concerning what exactly?" I ask, continuing to eat
"He called her a filthy mudblood" I drop my fork which clatters to the table loudly
"He what?" I stutter
"Yeah apparently it was awful"
"How do you know what happened?"
"The guy I've been hanging around with, well he was near to the scene and he told me what happened this morning" Kayla answers
"Why would? I can't, I can't imagine that Sev would call Lily that"
"Really, I saw it from a mile away" she responds
"Kayla!" I snap quietly trying not to attract any attention "Sev's always been like an older brother to me, since I was nine, he wouldn't do that"
"Well he did and don't think for a second that he wouldn't think the same of you" she explains and I go silent, Sev's had a crush on Lily for years why would he? And does he think of me in the same way? "I'm sorry" Kayla cuts into my inner battle "I shouldn't have" she drifts off
"N-n-no, what if your right?" I ask trembling "what if he's never cared about me or Lily, we're just trash to him, a piece of dirt he can't get rid of?"
"Rose, I-I" I raise my hand to silence her
"It's fine, do you want to head to the errrm common room?" I ask with shaky breath, she nods. We get up and simultaneously leave the great hall and continue silently towards the common room, we enter and sit in the corner of the room. I sit like a statue feeling eyes on me.

Time skip

"We should head to the courtyard, it's 11:45" I nod wordlessly and we walk towards the courtyard getting lost in the crowds of people, which makes me feel worse. We all stand together awaiting the celebration
"Let the fireworks begin" Dumbledore announces and everyone cheers.
The first fireworks sounds and it goes dead silent.
It should be an amazing night but I couldn't get my mind off the fact that I may lose another brother, and I can't do that.

It doesn't help when I look up and spot Sev with the other Slytherins, it isn't him or at least it isn't supposed to be.