not in the same way || c.h.

20

When I got home I closed the door behind me and pressed my back to it. I was finally able to let the tears that had been building up escape. My hands quickly covered the entirety of my face as I sobbed against the door of my apartment.

"Brenna? Are you home? Why are you crying?" Zoe asked which was slightly a mystery to me but I didn't question in. They were all here at different times whenever they wanted so I never questioned who was here and why anymore.

"Brenna what's wrong?" Avery asked with a worried look on her face as the two of them made their way towards me.

"I hate boys. How do you deal with them so often?" I asked as they came over to me and tried to comfort me.

"Usually I'm the one making them cry if I'm being completely honest." She said and pressed her lips together as she rubbed my back.

"What happened? Do you want ice cream or beer?" Zoe asked and brought me over to the couch.

"Both." I said which made them gasp. Usually for us we had four different levels of sadness.

Level one was just beer and some crying on the couch. Level two was ice cream, level three was both, and level four was beer, ice cream, and hard liquor. We rarely ever got to level four. I think Kendall was the only one that ever reached peak sadness before when she broke up with Michael for that short amount of time. Usually we're at levels one and two, and we knew it was really bad if we ever got to three. Four was mostly just there for the option really, we rarely used it.

"What happened?" She asked and went to the kitchen.

"Calum came into work today with this gorgeous girl and she was the sweetest thing in the world." I said as Zoe handed me a pint of cookies and cream ice cream and a bottle of beer.

"What? Are you serious? Did he not tell you to break up with your boyfriend for him?" Avery asked in surprise and disbelief while I nodded my head and put my filled spoon in my mouth.

"What is wrong with him?" Zoe asked, more to herself really since obviously no one really knew.

"He's just a stupid boy, you don't need him." She said a few minute later and took my shoes off my feet and my jacket off my shoulders.

"I know but I really liked him." I said and wiped my tears with the back of my hand.

"Were you like official or something?" Avery asked an tucked her strawberry blonde hair behind her ear.

"No I asked him if we could wait for that just because I had just broken up with Cole and I felt bad." I said which made her roll her eyes.

"Brenna boys hate waiting for anything, especially girls. If they want you they want you now, they don't sit around and wait for you to want them. They move on faster than you can blink." She said firmly which made me sigh and press my lips together.

"He said he was fine with it. He said 'if that's what you want."' I said and looked up at her as she shook her head.

"I'm sorry to be the one to tell you this, but boys lie all the time. Boys lie and they lie and they lie, he probably didn't really mean it if he's with some other girl." She said which just made me cry some more. Obviously she was right, she had to be. And I'm glad that I had friends that'll tell me the truth no matter what, even if I was crying.

"I can't believe I broke up with Cole, cheated on him even, for him. I'm such an idiot." I said and put my head in my hands and dropped my spoon in the pint of ice cream.

"You're not an idiot, he is. He missed out, not you." Zoe said and moved my light brown hair out of my face so it wouldn't get in my ice cream.

"I defended him to Ashton this morning. He was saying how you guys all think there's something off with him and he's not right for me and a whole bunch of other crap, and I defended him. I feel like an idiot, and I look like one too." I said shamefully.

"You're not an idiot Brenna, you got blindsided. You didn't see this coming and that's not your fault." She said soothingly.

"I think I'm just gonna go to bed." I said with a sigh and took my ice cream out of my lap and put it on the table in front of me.

"Are you gonna be alright?" Avery asked and watched me as I made my way down the hall.

"I'll be fine don't worry." I said and closed my door behind me so I could get some sleep, or as much of it that I could get.