not in the same way || c.h.

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Calum's POV*

  I heard my phone ring from across my apartment and reluctantly went over to answer it. I've been upset ever since I left Brenna's, or she kicked me out. I know it was my fault but that doesn't make me feel any better.

  I do love her, and I did. I just don't know how to love someone. As dumb as it sounds, I really don't. No ones ever loved me before and I've never loved anyone other than her. I don't know how any of that works.

"Hey Lou what's up?" I asked and took out the carton of milk from the fridge and started drinking it.

"You need to get to Brenna's now." He said firmly which made me confused.

"She hates me Louis there's no point." I said and put the milk back in the fridge.

"There is a point because someones there and he's gonna kill her. There's no time to get into detail, just get the fuck there now!" He yelled which made me immediately hang up the phone and bolt out of my apartment.

  The second I got to her apartment building I ran up the stairs as fast as I could. Her door had a hole in it which explained how he got in. I frantically looked around the apartment for her in hopes that she'd be okay. But when I turned to go down the hallway I saw him hovering over her with blood everywhere.

  It was probably one of my dads henchmen, considering I've never seen him before. He kept his best men a secret for whatever reason. I don't even know but I guess it made sense now.

"Get off of her!" I yelled and tackled him to the ground. He dropped the knife as I tackled him and relentlessly punched the shit out of him. I've never been so enraged in my life. This was all my fault, this entire thing was my fault.

  I walked in her life, got attached to her, got her attached to me, and told her everything. Then I drove her out of my life knowing damn well that she was great for me and that I loved her, and that there were people looking for her. This is entirely my fault and I feel fucking awful.

  The two of us were fighting and throwing each other around the hallway. We fought for the knife but I somehow ended up getting it in my hands which allowed me to stab him in the gut.

  He stumbled over and fell lifelessly on the ground next to me which allowed me to get to Brenna.

"Brenna? Brenna get up." I yelled and shook her shoulders. She had blood spilled from her stomach so I put tons of pressure there to try and stop the bleeding. I tried my best to see if she had any other injuries but to me it seemed like that was it.

"Brenna?" Kendall called out which made me curse under my breath.

"Kendall! Kendall get the car ready!" I yelled and picked Brenna up and walked towards the door.

"What happened? What are you doing here?" She asked and lost all the air that was in her lungs as she saw me carrying her lifeless best friend.

"I'll explain in the car but we need to get to the hospital now." I said before we both ran down the stairs and out to the car.

  I told her everything from start to finish while she drove to the hospital. At this point it didn't matter if I told anyone. After Brenna kicked me out it just gave me more motivation to get this plan figured out. So I planned everything and came up with something with the help of the boys.

"What happened to her?" A nurse asked as we walked through the ER doors.

"She was stabbed, please please save her." I cried and laid her on the gurney as other nurses came towards us.

"They'll do the best they can. In the meantime let's get you cleaned up and we'll get an officer to ask some questions." She said and ushered me over to the waiting room.

  While an officer asked me a ton of questions I watched Kendall sob on the phone from the corner of my eye. I'm sure she was calling the rest of Brenna's friends which meant they'd want to kill me.

"You're an asshole you know that right?" Kendall sniffled as she sat down next to me once the officer had left.

"I know." I sighed and put my head in my hands.

"You broke her. You don't even know how many times we had to talk her out of hurting herself because of you. She put everything she had into you and you just took advantage of it." She said with absolutely no emotion in her voice as she stared at the ground.

"I know." I sighed and took a long pause.

"I didn't mean to, I really didn't. I've just never loved anyone before, or ever been loved by anyone either. I've never even been in a serious relationship before. I don't know how it works. I was an idiot and I know that, but I really do love her. I love her more than anything, I just don't know how to and it fucked me over." I said and rested my elbows on my knees.

"She was so patient with you, she tolerated your ignorance to love and tried to teach you how to love and you ruined it. You ruined her." She scolded and sent me a dirty look.

"I know I did. I ruined myself too. I want her back, I'm always gonna want her back. And I know I don't deserve her but I can't let her be with anyone else. This time I'll do better. I've learned now, and I know that I can do better." I said surely and gave her a serious look.

"How could you have possibly learned?" She asked with disbelief in her tone.

"I found my sister. I contacted her and we caught up. I told her about Brenna and everything else going on. I told her that I love her but I don't know how to express it to her and she helped. I know I can do better now. I may not be the best at first but I need another chance with her." I said and slightly begged for her approval.

"I don't know why you're begging me. It's not me that you love and fucked over, even if you indirectly did." She said and crossed her arms over her chest as she leaned into the chair.