Malva's drug

Chapter five

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"So what's your favorite ice cream mal?" 7 year old Toby asked me, I made my thinking face which Toby says makes me look constipated.

"I like Cookie Monster with a fresh baked cookie on the side, but it has to be a blue cookie" 6 year old me said in the flower garden.

Me and Toby found this place when we were walking home from school, since then it's been our place.

"I like strawberry" Toby said, "why?" I asked tilting my head.

"Reminds me of your personality" 7 year old Toby said.
I laughed, "how do ice cream flavors have personality's?"

"I don't know Mal, we should bring each other ice cream, Every time we come" 7 year old Toby said before eating some of my ice cream.

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Today was me and Toby 14th year friendship anniversary. 14 Years ago me and Toby was kidnaped together and ever since then we were friends. The kidnapping is a story for another time.

I got out of bed with one motive today, go to the flower garden and eat ice cream every October 9th people steer clear of me, Knowing mood swings and emotional breakdowns are bound to happen.

I threw on graphic tee-shirt, with greys sweat pants. I put on my white sneakers. I went outside of my room, Going straight to Sasha room. I seen her doing her makeup. "How are you?" I asked genuinely.

"I'm fine, thanks for yesterday. You're not as bitchy as I thought." She said making me chuckle.

"And you're not as a wicked blond bitch as I thought." I mumbled before leaving her room.

I made my way downstairs to fix me a sandwich, before I left. Once I had everything cut, I still had onions which reminded me of Toby. Everything these days remind me of him.

"Mal that's not how you cut a onion " 16 year old Toby said grabbing the knife from me, I jerked away which cut my finger "shit" 15 year old me said before dropping the knife.

Toby was in the middle of pouring rubbing alcohol on my finger. "High pain tolerance?" Toby asked looking up as his brown hair covered his eyes.

"My dad is training me to be the next heir remember?" I said knowing Toby haven't been remembering well lately

"All done" Toby said putting a bandage on my finger before putting a gentle kiss on my finger.

I was zoned out when I cut myself again, I felt tears well up in my eye's. As I poured water on my shaking hand.

"Amara?" Blaise asked, I quickly fixed my self, Meaning the tears were gone and my hand stopped shaking

"What the fuck do you want?" I asked trying to open the bottle of alcohol to pour on my hand.

"You're bleeding" Blaise said caution getting closer, " Stop stating the obvious"

"Are you ok?" He asked in a genuine worried tone, I hate when people ask that and you just explode of emotions.

I didn't want to be seen as a weak girl. I didn't want Blaise to care for me or anyone else for that matter.

I shakily nodded, trying to maintain my sob from coming out. Blaise took the bottle from my hand and poured it on my cut.

"Mal why are you crying?" Toby said,

"Amara why are you crying?" Blaise asked bring be back to reality.

"I-umm" I said having a hard time breathing, feeling the walls close in on me. Barely hearing my thoughts. All I hear is a faint voice telling me to calm down.