A PROMISE TO REMEMBER (BOOK TWO) °Chaesoo°

CHAPTER 26

Roseanne's POV

"Chaeng what happened?" Hyeri asked me, as soon as I step inside of her room.

After leaving Jisoo there, I find my way here. I was just glad Hyeri is still awake.

I find myself sitting at the edge of her bed as I bring my hands to my face, starting to sobs so hard.

What did I do? I left her again, I promise her that I wouldn't do it but I just did.

I left Jisoo again.

I don't know what's gotten in to me, but when I saw her kneeling down as she opened that box, I felt the sudden fear engulfing me. I was scared, I'm scared of the possible outcome.

There's so much scenarios running inside of my head and to add that our past keeps on bugging me. How I hurt her, how I broke her and how I gave her pain everytime she was proposing her love for me. Looking back to those memories, I'm scared to repeat that again. I don't want to hurt Jisoo, not now that she's too happy, not now that I witnessed how her face glowing because she's at peace. I don't want to take that peacefulness from her.

Jisoo was way perfect for me, I don't deserved her. All I did was to hurt her, I'm not deserving of her love.

I was startled when Hyeri hold my shoulder as she turn me around to face her. She's just looking at me in so much worried.

"Hey, what's wrong? Why are you crying?" Hyeri asked and wipe the now visible tears on my face.

I deep a sighed and started to cry again. "Jisoo, we were just having a good dinner then all of the sudden she was proposing her love for me, but being an idiot, I -- I left her there. I left her again Hyeri, I did the same mistakes again." I said as I lower my head.

Hyeri pulled me in a tight hug as she patting my back in comfort. I'm just crying while she embracing me in her arms.

"No don't say that, I know you have your reasons why you did that. Tell me why? Why'd you left her?" Hyeri asked, voice soft as she still patting my back.

I swallowed the lump on my throat, "I'm scared Hyeri, what if I hurt her again? What if something might happen again? I don't deserve her Hyeri, Jisoo was way out of my league. I don't want to bring pain on her anymore" I said, still feeling the hot liquid dripping from my eyes.

I heard Hyeri deep a sighed as she slightly push me, and now she's looking directly to my eyes. I can see how disappointed she is, but at the same time I know she understands me.

"You're overthinking again Roseanne, nothing will happen. What you did was wrong, you think you didn't hurt her after you left her there? You think she's not crying right now? Look Chaeng, Jisoo prepared all of that for you, I overheard her conversation with Lisa. She did all of that just for you. Jisoo loves you, you need to set aside that fear you've been feeling and trust her. Trust your love for each other. How I want to smack you right now, but I still understand you. You were scared, that's normal. But even though how much fear you were feeling, leaving Jisoo there alone was not an option. You need to talk to her right now, tell her everything. Tell her that you didn't mean to left her, you were just scared. Jisoo might misunderstood your actions, so you need to go now and explain everything." Hyeri said, makes me to think that she was right.

Oh my god, what did I do. I was so stupid, I did hurt her without me knowing. I need to see her, I don't want to ruin everything.

When I stand up, Hyeri did the same. She was looking at me just like she's motivating me. I wipe my tears and paste a smile.

"You're right, I was so stupid. I need to see her, I don't want to let Jisoo go again. I love her, I will take the risk this time." I said and get something inside of my coat's pocket.